Ei tule lasta, eikä paskaa...
Wow, long time no post.
I couldn't renew my paid account because I can't really afford it at the moment. It's not that I can't pay for it...it's just that there are more important things I need my money for right now. Still, it's a bit annoying that most of my icons just went *poof*.
Things are hard right now. I can't help feeling like Eric is keeping me at arm's length...though I also feel like part of that is me putting the distance there so that I don't make anyone think I'm obsessed. Either way...I know he told me December, but I'm feeling like I should really talk to him before fall break comes around. I just...don't know. I know what I want to say, but the scars on my spirit and my mind make me feel (unreasonably) that I'm going to drive him away.
Still, I know I need to do it if I want to justify having any hope at all. It's fairly empty otherwise.
Olen harjoitellut suomen. Minusta on olen paratunut. :) Vielä tarvitsen sanakirjan, mutta nyt mä puhun ja kirjoitan hyvin. En tiedä milloin voin mene Suomelle...haluan nyt mennä. Mennä Helsingille tai Tamperelle tai Jyväskylälle tai Oululle...vain haluan tämän.
I couldn't renew my paid account because I can't really afford it at the moment. It's not that I can't pay for it...it's just that there are more important things I need my money for right now. Still, it's a bit annoying that most of my icons just went *poof*.
Things are hard right now. I can't help feeling like Eric is keeping me at arm's length...though I also feel like part of that is me putting the distance there so that I don't make anyone think I'm obsessed. Either way...I know he told me December, but I'm feeling like I should really talk to him before fall break comes around. I just...don't know. I know what I want to say, but the scars on my spirit and my mind make me feel (unreasonably) that I'm going to drive him away.
Still, I know I need to do it if I want to justify having any hope at all. It's fairly empty otherwise.
Olen harjoitellut suomen. Minusta on olen paratunut. :) Vielä tarvitsen sanakirjan, mutta nyt mä puhun ja kirjoitan hyvin. En tiedä milloin voin mene Suomelle...haluan nyt mennä. Mennä Helsingille tai Tamperelle tai Jyväskylälle tai Oululle...vain haluan tämän.