beginning of the end
my tenure at the sun ended today. i am in an overwhelming amount of shock. it's a relief, but it's also the beginning of a lot of endings to things that have somehow come to mean a lot to me and define me as a person over the past four years. even though a similar phenomenon occurred when i graduated from high school as well, then i had college to look forward to and occupy me, whereas right now i feel i have to come to terms with these milestones in my life before allowing myself to move on. i don't even give a shit about my current boy troubles because for me, being able to find closure at this point in my life is so much more important right now. oh, senior year.