Sigh. Sometimes, I am not the brightest.
So number one, I broke the internet rule, do not post when overtired and angry.
Meh. But it felt good, and it is after all, my journal.
Today I wanted to look at inspiring things.
So I read some Amanda Fucking Palmer blog, watched her TED talk (love it! I really did. It is how I live a great deal of my life, and I understand the internet a bit better.)
Anddddd...I watched the new video, The Bed song.
Only see this video if you are in a good space in daylight surrounded by loved ones, and preferably very little emotional crisis.
Ummm...it was daylight. Oh the big wet tears. Oh gods the crying.
So.Good. OK, i might still be crying.
I can't wait to have money again so I can purchase the musics.
I am also very aware that I can no longer wait for college, for partners, for friends, to get back to being myself.
I'm not quite sure where I am at, or even if I'm just dusty and need a sprucing or rusted through and need a complete overhaul.
I want to be magic again, living a magic life.
The normal, it kills me.
It numbs me in my soul.
Meh. But it felt good, and it is after all, my journal.
Today I wanted to look at inspiring things.
So I read some Amanda Fucking Palmer blog, watched her TED talk (love it! I really did. It is how I live a great deal of my life, and I understand the internet a bit better.)
Anddddd...I watched the new video, The Bed song.
Only see this video if you are in a good space in daylight surrounded by loved ones, and preferably very little emotional crisis.
Ummm...it was daylight. Oh the big wet tears. Oh gods the crying.
So.Good. OK, i might still be crying.
I can't wait to have money again so I can purchase the musics.
I am also very aware that I can no longer wait for college, for partners, for friends, to get back to being myself.
I'm not quite sure where I am at, or even if I'm just dusty and need a sprucing or rusted through and need a complete overhaul.
I want to be magic again, living a magic life.
The normal, it kills me.
It numbs me in my soul.