Jan 21, 2007 14:33
Well, I'm feeling mighty messed up. As much as everything in my life is going beautifully (sans money and living situation), I still feel rather akward and transitionary. It's an exciting akward, but man am I ever craving some stability. I am in Victoria now, just about to catch a bus back to Nanaimo. I love coming here but only ever seeing Bran on the weekends does make things highly intense. I am having wierd recolections of how my dad and I saw each other so little, we had to make the most of our time which is exausting when that person should just be a part of your everyday routine. The indulgence of the begining of a relationship combined with a restriction of time together is brutal. I still feel though, like this is going to last a very long time and be extremely good for me. Yet I worry. :P So because I have been clearing my weekends to spend with Bran, or change location, or do whatever, I have been having to fit everything else into the middle of the week. So like, 4 days. These four days are completly packed full of everything- classes, work, excersise, social outings, the works. And to top it all of, I might have to move to another house for my last two months in Nanaimo because I can't find a roomate. Luckily Joey needs a roomate for the same amount of time and will only charge me $350 no damage or anything. I feel like I'm in a very fast moving river and have no option to press pause but I'm so excited to where I'm going that I wouldn't want to stop it even if I could. This visit in Victoria was great, I feel closer to Bran everytime we get together. We biked around Vic, made squash soup and walked along the beach with Sticky the dog. There was a great balance of deep conversation and giggles and laying in bed for eternity. This week I don't have more than an hour free each day and then I was planning on coming back to Vic because I have a free ride, but I would almost rather have Bran come to Nanaimo... Granted, I don't want to be around my roomate right now. Hmm... decisions decisions. See? That was a real entry right? Yay.