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goddammit. i had an intense dream last night. i don't remember very well but it had something to do with my mom. & i was hysterical. & no one would really listen or acknowledge me at all. i was hyperventilating and crying and shit. and everyone just sortof walked away. i woke up to the phone ringing still breathing really heavy. it was kayli and she was really short with me. a few minutes later my mom got home drunk. she'd planned on taking me and some people out to dinner for graduation even though its late. she said she wanted to do something for me and i agreed because i knew it'd make her happy. so for the past hour or something now she's been asking her whether or not we're going and i've been telling her that i don't know and that i have no desire to talk to her right now. & to leave me alone. i don't know.