a REAL update
mike comes back today.
i made it.
10 days without seeing him.
10 days without much contact at all.
he lost his phone which was good cause i didnt have a way to contact him.
i missed him a lot.
somone asked me if i think he is "the one"
my reply " i dont know"
i try not to think of things like that
one day at a time
but deep down inside i dream that he is that one person i can spend the rest of my life with
as dysfunctional as we are
as good as we make each other
i do scribble the name ashley rennie 5000000000 times in my notebook
call it immature
call it child at heart if you will
i know he will never be a knight in shining armor
but he can be my hero in dirty camo shorts(the ones i bought)
there are 100000000 things i love about him yet when he asks what i love i cannot answer
love is a crazy thing
it makes you do crazy things
and before you critisize someone for loving
think about what you would do in their situation
carissa is moving away
3,000 miles away
she is my best friend
i can call her when im bored, scared, depressed, happy, and she is not going to be down the street anymore
a part of me will go with her
the part that believes her and kevin will work out and be happy forever
the part that says "never wonder what if"
i hope she does get answers to all the things she is wondering about.
i hope she is happy.
so this is it for now.
i have to go to work.
i made it.
10 days without seeing him.
10 days without much contact at all.
he lost his phone which was good cause i didnt have a way to contact him.
i missed him a lot.
somone asked me if i think he is "the one"
my reply " i dont know"
i try not to think of things like that
one day at a time
but deep down inside i dream that he is that one person i can spend the rest of my life with
as dysfunctional as we are
as good as we make each other
i do scribble the name ashley rennie 5000000000 times in my notebook
call it immature
call it child at heart if you will
i know he will never be a knight in shining armor
but he can be my hero in dirty camo shorts(the ones i bought)
there are 100000000 things i love about him yet when he asks what i love i cannot answer
love is a crazy thing
it makes you do crazy things
and before you critisize someone for loving
think about what you would do in their situation
carissa is moving away
3,000 miles away
she is my best friend
i can call her when im bored, scared, depressed, happy, and she is not going to be down the street anymore
a part of me will go with her
the part that believes her and kevin will work out and be happy forever
the part that says "never wonder what if"
i hope she does get answers to all the things she is wondering about.
i hope she is happy.
so this is it for now.
i have to go to work.