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I was so excited to come back to school and see all of my friends. I even, apparently rather naively, thought all of them would be excited to see me too. Some of them definitely were, I had seen all of my fencing friends with in a week and even the ones I didn't know that well, like Claudia and Steve seemed to be happy that I was back.
But I've been back for 2 months now and I really haven't seen anyone that is not a fencer.
Alec and Megan started coming to Sunday Night dinners, it's weird, I haven't really talked to either of them since Freshman year, but I feel closer to them then I do to people that i have talked to ever since.
As all this was bothering me I got onto facebook and saw a facebook chat message from this kid that I went to middle school with and saw occasionally during high school at the trolley. And it really seemed funny that he would think to talk to me and people who are supposed to still be my friends don't.
I'm just so tired of the effort. Is it so awful that I want to see you? Could you man up and say that you don't want to see me if that is really the case? Or at least make some small amount of reciprocal effort? If you can't make a suggested hang out, you could suggest another one. At least some indication that i'm not just annoying you would be nice. Or does it just flatter your ego to turn me down again and again and again. Eventually even I give up.
I guess I just wasn't ready to not be friends with these people anymore. I mean, I guess I knew it was going to happen... I graduate in December and I'm getting the hell out of this place. I mean yeah, I'll come back and visit, but (especially since i've actually been here for 2 months) I see no reason to believe i'd actually see any of my non fencing friends. This is just like a year sooner than this was supposed to happen.
You could have at least said Good bye.
But I've been back for 2 months now and I really haven't seen anyone that is not a fencer.
Alec and Megan started coming to Sunday Night dinners, it's weird, I haven't really talked to either of them since Freshman year, but I feel closer to them then I do to people that i have talked to ever since.
As all this was bothering me I got onto facebook and saw a facebook chat message from this kid that I went to middle school with and saw occasionally during high school at the trolley. And it really seemed funny that he would think to talk to me and people who are supposed to still be my friends don't.
I'm just so tired of the effort. Is it so awful that I want to see you? Could you man up and say that you don't want to see me if that is really the case? Or at least make some small amount of reciprocal effort? If you can't make a suggested hang out, you could suggest another one. At least some indication that i'm not just annoying you would be nice. Or does it just flatter your ego to turn me down again and again and again. Eventually even I give up.
I guess I just wasn't ready to not be friends with these people anymore. I mean, I guess I knew it was going to happen... I graduate in December and I'm getting the hell out of this place. I mean yeah, I'll come back and visit, but (especially since i've actually been here for 2 months) I see no reason to believe i'd actually see any of my non fencing friends. This is just like a year sooner than this was supposed to happen.
You could have at least said Good bye.