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I can't believe it's been almost six months. Sometimes I think...maybe this place isn't so bad. I think I've learned a lot more than I ever knew before. Things about the heart, and the purpose of friends. But knowing all these things doesn't help me. I still don't know what I am.
A Nobody, but not a normal one. Sometimes I feel the urge to cry. And sometimes I feel like smiling. I have no memories to base these things off of, so where do they come from? Perhaps I borrowed them from someone's heart. Maybe Kairi is less of what she once was because I walk free. That's what I'd like to think, but... She doesn't seem affected at all. She's whole even when I'm not. It isn't fair!
Only Roxas knows what this must 'feel' like, but I don't want to burden him. He made it clear that he doesn't have any use for me anymore.
I want to make friends, but I don't know how. I'm not very good at it like Sora is. And it's always hard to know who to trust. Even Axel, who's shown me some kindness, would kill me in an instant if it served his purpose.
Can you trust someone without a heart? Can I trust myself? I feel so lost, and scared... I tried to be strong, but I just don't know if I can anymore. I want to be safe more than I want to be free.
I'm so scared.
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[ ooc; Filter broken on PURPOSE, so anyone with eyes can read it. B)b She's affected by Morality Reversal, fufufu~ Expect her to take full advantage of the damsel-card, O Enemies. ]
I can't believe it's been almost six months. Sometimes I think...maybe this place isn't so bad. I think I've learned a lot more than I ever knew before. Things about the heart, and the purpose of friends. But knowing all these things doesn't help me. I still don't know what I am.
A Nobody, but not a normal one. Sometimes I feel the urge to cry. And sometimes I feel like smiling. I have no memories to base these things off of, so where do they come from? Perhaps I borrowed them from someone's heart. Maybe Kairi is less of what she once was because I walk free. That's what I'd like to think, but... She doesn't seem affected at all. She's whole even when I'm not. It isn't fair!
Only Roxas knows what this must 'feel' like, but I don't want to burden him. He made it clear that he doesn't have any use for me anymore.
I want to make friends, but I don't know how. I'm not very good at it like Sora is. And it's always hard to know who to trust. Even Axel, who's shown me some kindness, would kill me in an instant if it served his purpose.
Can you trust someone without a heart? Can I trust myself? I feel so lost, and scared... I tried to be strong, but I just don't know if I can anymore. I want to be safe more than I want to be free.
I'm so scared.
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[ ooc; Filter broken on PURPOSE, so anyone with eyes can read it. B)b She's affected by Morality Reversal, fufufu~ Expect her to take full advantage of the damsel-card, O Enemies. ]