Somewhere along the line I forgot it gets cold in New York and there's been a bitter, bitter awakening. Shooooooot I kept saying yesterday, I hate winter, and somebody'd always say, it's fall. I'd get upset at home if there was a bite in the air on Halloween, and here I'll be turning twenny in a sweater. I already knew a long time ago people are always going to be as stupid as they were when they were kids but still yet I feel too stupid to get older. At least it's easier to turn even numbered years. A woman at KMart asked me what I'm going to do with my art degree and gave me that look when I said I can't think about it yet. ho ho ho, fuck.