home.
I keep talking about when I get back. I don't have final exams, so I'm done the 9th with all our projects and assessments, but I'm flying to Rome for three days, and hopefully coming home the 14th. I'm trying to push my flight up from the 18th to the 14th anyway. Hey, mommmm, get back to me.
I'm nervous coming home, knowing the extent of the contact between friends at home, which, has, clearly, been agitating me. "It's because you're not here!" No, no it's not! I wish I had a whack-a-mole hammer to hit them on the head, in an endearing manner. Frankly, the last two years of my birthday and Christmas haven't been the greatest. I don't think I've enjoyed one the most since turning 20, for various reasons. Most of the time I was stressed out with friendship/relationship problems, and worrying about what was going on, which can take up a large part of my life. In fact, worrying should be my middle name, apparently.
Snow last year fucked up me having a lot of people there, or people bailing with excuses, which wasn't cool.
This year, I refuse to go home and have a shit time, although no one likes you when you're 23, right? I am worried about not being able to see everyone though.
Nonetheless, I am trying to get home, and have some sort of family line dinner. I have a little little! And I want to meet her and I miss my Big and my Little.
Michele and I are trying to coordinate our birthdays together because we're both too lazy about planning, but want to go out and dance and have a good time. Plus, my birthday falls at a bitch of a time, smack in the middle of two holidays. I've given up hoping my friends will plan it for me, lol. Anywayyy, it's been a while since I've been to a club. Well, I've been to one here where I ran past paying and it was all house music which I was not nearly close enough to drunk to dance to.
I am trying to go snowboarding, at least one day, and the aspect of friends who don't even have the interest in trying, still boggles my mind. It's so much fun, and I wish more of them would go.
I'm hoping to do many things and spend time with many people, because I'm probably not coming back till November the earliest, hopefully (because I want to go to my graduation, so I have to wait till November), and that's going to be a long time to not see my friends.
I am so excited to see the city at Christmas though, I've always loved it, and the love and warmth surrounding the holiday.
Yea, man, I just watched the Holiday, so I'm 100% gay.
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This song is really cute & new, but I've always loved the Fray.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IWnXSV6uZps
if you love someone, you love em all the same.