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[coppercurled]

2009:
All I wanted to say was...that night was one of the best nights I have had in a long time despite the circumstances.

All I wanted to say was...I thought our family was better than that; that we would never be so ripped apart, especially all of you - my mother's side.

All I wanted to say was...If grandma saw our family now, she would be so heartbroken that things have become this way. I know she always told me her kids would never fight when she died. This would destroy her as it destroys me.

All I wanted to say was...I can't believe how easily you've given us up, and, still, to this day, do not know how you did that after being friends for so long. How easily you can give something that is supposed to have so much meaning up?

All I wanted to say was...no, I don't know if I could give up all of my friends for my own personal happiness because they are a major part of my happiness and if things go awry, I want them there for me.

All I wanted to say was...you cannot avoid awkward conversations your whole life. I just want to know if this is going anywhere.

All I wanted to say was...I still don't understand how you will not and do not want to drive. How you insist on being reliant on people the rest of your life to get around.

All I wanted to say was...I miss you too, a whole lot. And I don't know why I feel like it will be so awkward to call you up and say "What's new?" or ask you to something. So curious as to who this wasssss.

All I wanted to say was...I know I have problems talking about my feelings, I know it needs to be dragged out of me. Sometimes I want to rant it out and I don't want a pity party.

All I wanted to say was...I want us to take that leap. Stop being afraid.

All I wanted to say...I want a better relationship. I don't know why I can't bring myself to be more talkative about my life and more eager to participate in family activities.

All I wanted to say was...how do you let people slide so easily? Give them excuses? Keep it that way and they'll get away with it the rest of your life. You can't be afraid of people not liking you over stupid things.

All I wanted to say was...it is so hard to balance a close group of friends and greek life. Both feel like I don't spend enough time and I feel alone. In the middle. Standing there, watching from a distance in both instances, I feel like I miss out on something from each.

All I wanted to say was...I think I need you. For once in my life, I know I need you, maybe not in a useful sense, but that doesn't matter.

All I wanted to say was...I am scared of the future, living in the present, reminiscing about the past.

All I wanted to say was...I wish I was a better friend to everyone, and you can say how is that possible? I wish people strived to be as eager about it as I am.

All I wanted to say was...I think I have an issue. I still have problems crying.

All I wanted to say was...I am not as calm as I appear.

All I wanted to say was...I can't believe I've never been depressed either. I know plenty of my friends have and it kills me that they couldn't avoid such a phase.

All I wanted to say was...I'm actually not sure of the direction I'm headed in.

All I wanted to say was...you taught me to enjoy life - that we're too young to stress and I wish you were still here at school to see that I can apply that now. I'm sad you're not sometimes.

All I wanted to say was...is.