mind is a mess.
I took a nap, which is absolutely the worst thing you can do, because then you can't fall asleep normally and just think...
Ugh.
This is a really terrible way to go. One friend says how it's so unfortunate how it's fallen about.
One tells me I did everything while I say I feel I didn't. "EVERYTHING" they yell at me.
Scared of losing him, I say. "Why, that just shows what character there is and solidifies why you don't need him, if that happens." DUHHH. ahem. not that easy to feel.
The disheartening lurch that she has met your family. My mind wanders as to how that went about. How do you introduce someone like that? Did they know I existed?
Selfish, I know, but really. I can afford to be after this.
Does she get to feel as shit as I do? Does HE. You know. He fucked it up all over again after we just started rebuilding over fucked up.
Heh. Well, at least she's one of those second raters, righttt? righht. excusable. huh.
If only she knew.
Don't stop being a fighter even though this shit has happened. I think I'm better off a quitter in that department.
At least I won't feel like I'm fighting to be close friends with him and someone else because I feel like them becoming close has overtaken our individual closeness.
Right? No. I really have not a freaking clue anymore.
Yea, yet I can't stop from feeling so terribly sad and hurt when I'm stuck trying to fall asleep at bloody 1am. 5 years.
It's all how it's handled really that makes the difference. At least I was honest and said things? Yea. Ummm. Eh.
Fuck. It's all so silly. Where's the wall me?
Right, the one that used to aggravate people for not talking about feelings?
Oh yeaaaa. Right, that's why I used to be like that. So much easier than this crap. There's really nothing to stop the feeling.
Ugh.
This is a really terrible way to go. One friend says how it's so unfortunate how it's fallen about.
One tells me I did everything while I say I feel I didn't. "EVERYTHING" they yell at me.
Scared of losing him, I say. "Why, that just shows what character there is and solidifies why you don't need him, if that happens." DUHHH. ahem. not that easy to feel.
The disheartening lurch that she has met your family. My mind wanders as to how that went about. How do you introduce someone like that? Did they know I existed?
Selfish, I know, but really. I can afford to be after this.
Does she get to feel as shit as I do? Does HE. You know. He fucked it up all over again after we just started rebuilding over fucked up.
Heh. Well, at least she's one of those second raters, righttt? righht. excusable. huh.
If only she knew.
Don't stop being a fighter even though this shit has happened. I think I'm better off a quitter in that department.
At least I won't feel like I'm fighting to be close friends with him and someone else because I feel like them becoming close has overtaken our individual closeness.
Right? No. I really have not a freaking clue anymore.
Yea, yet I can't stop from feeling so terribly sad and hurt when I'm stuck trying to fall asleep at bloody 1am. 5 years.
It's all how it's handled really that makes the difference. At least I was honest and said things? Yea. Ummm. Eh.
Fuck. It's all so silly. Where's the wall me?
Right, the one that used to aggravate people for not talking about feelings?
Oh yeaaaa. Right, that's why I used to be like that. So much easier than this crap. There's really nothing to stop the feeling.