tired.

May 24, 2012 00:51

We all experience it. Fatigue, tiredness, exhaustion. It happens. 
Unfortunately, I hate I'm tired as an excuse. I know it's legit sometimes, but I think I dislike it mostly because I know I used it poorly in the past.
In undergrad, I would oft miss out on things or avoid them because I was tired or it was mad effort. I would take a while to get the door, or whatever, and I can see it having been dumb or annoying, as was not seeing people as much because they were a walk away from west, or my building.
Learning from that, last year, I tried to do as much as possible, and go out whenever, and I still apply it to the now.
Despite being tired here, after volleyball practice, I'll drag myself out to meet classmates or whatever, and walk 20 minutes to hang out just so I don't miss out and make the most of life. 
My friend once complained to me that everyone at home was lame because they wouldn't go out because they were tired, whereas last year, I would go out anyway, and I would work all day 9-5, and run home, change in 15 minutes, rush to the ferry and still would go out. It's because I had learned from the years before what a waste it was and just how much sleep was waiting for me.
I had it down pat. Out of work at 5, run home, outfit planned in my head, toss it on, do makeup on the way, change in the car and STILL make the 5:15 ferry. I was a pro.
People don't value the time they have with people, and in retrospect, I'm glad I did it. Unsaid goodbyes and all, or not being able to, I spent so much time with people, I can't regret time I missed out, because it simply didn't exist.
I applied this when I was home from Scotland for the winter break as well, and got annoyed that people didn't show up to things because they were tired from the night out before. When my friend complained, I was in a way like, seriously, or when they didn't show. I had gone out the night before, was tired as all hell, got my ass up, worked, ran to the city to meet sisters, and come back home early enough to show up to a friend's party and these people didn't show up because they were tired? Bitch, please, you don't know tired.

I know I have my nights sometimes where I'm lazy or antisocial, or legitimately tired, like the day I get home from travelling, but I try and not let myself use it as an excuse to miss out on good times and people. Because I've learned that when people say they can't say goodbye, or that it's too hard, you may never have that chance to, more or less know if you'll see them or it'll be the same ever again, so fuck tired and enjoy things as much as you can. There's always time to sleep.
Don't miss out on your friends because you're tired. Man up, yo.

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