past.
Here's the thing about the past. Everyone's so keen to live in the present, the now, because it's what you should do, enjoy the moments of now, and sometimes, when you've accepted things and taken it for what it is in the now - that's when the past comes out and kicks you in the back.
Haha! Thought I was gone, did you?
It comes at times you don't really expect it, obviously. Or when you didn't ask for it.
You could be sitting in a bar with an ex's friend, and they can just start talking about themselves (not selfishly, just talking) and all of a sudden he comes up. The friend goes on about how he's known him, and how he thought he'd be the first one to date, but he wasn't, it was his friend instead. He then goes through the dating history - some you know, some you knew and forgot, as well as the history of him, which you had learned because you wanted to know him.
You think you're going to hear it all - what you know, what you've heard before. Then they slip in something like meeting the current person at the Halloween parade last year when you thought she was gone, when you two were fixing things. You pause a little, and don't say much, just kind of mentioned that was surprising - it stings.
It turns out the past you knew, wasn't really completely...but in the same you have the sarcastic thought of should you really have thought you did know.
You mention this to the friend, that you thought she was gone, and his advice is something along the lines of to just give up essentially. No worries, you were the most reasonable of them all. This girl's a bitch. Not that he meddles in those affairs, as long as everyone's health is good, he's not worried and all that jazz.
Kicked. That's what brings it about really, the questions and the hard times, because just when you think you've got it down, when you had it good, something comes out of nowhere and blindsides you and you have to remind yourself of what you did know, because the rest is all thrown into question and sometimes you really won't get an answer.
Then you watch your classmates and compliment them on being a couple, to which one replies, "Ah, he's just really stupid." Reminds me of me and my ex, you say, and they ask what happened. You give them the shallow version and sometimes it hits you then.
Haha! Thought I was gone, did you?
It comes at times you don't really expect it, obviously. Or when you didn't ask for it.
You could be sitting in a bar with an ex's friend, and they can just start talking about themselves (not selfishly, just talking) and all of a sudden he comes up. The friend goes on about how he's known him, and how he thought he'd be the first one to date, but he wasn't, it was his friend instead. He then goes through the dating history - some you know, some you knew and forgot, as well as the history of him, which you had learned because you wanted to know him.
You think you're going to hear it all - what you know, what you've heard before. Then they slip in something like meeting the current person at the Halloween parade last year when you thought she was gone, when you two were fixing things. You pause a little, and don't say much, just kind of mentioned that was surprising - it stings.
It turns out the past you knew, wasn't really completely...but in the same you have the sarcastic thought of should you really have thought you did know.
You mention this to the friend, that you thought she was gone, and his advice is something along the lines of to just give up essentially. No worries, you were the most reasonable of them all. This girl's a bitch. Not that he meddles in those affairs, as long as everyone's health is good, he's not worried and all that jazz.
Kicked. That's what brings it about really, the questions and the hard times, because just when you think you've got it down, when you had it good, something comes out of nowhere and blindsides you and you have to remind yourself of what you did know, because the rest is all thrown into question and sometimes you really won't get an answer.
Then you watch your classmates and compliment them on being a couple, to which one replies, "Ah, he's just really stupid." Reminds me of me and my ex, you say, and they ask what happened. You give them the shallow version and sometimes it hits you then.