May 13, 2004 16:19
i don't know what to do with myself as of right now.
i feel dumb and crappy
i miss having someone.
i miss having some brains.
what the hell am i doing with myself. i don't even know. i used to be such a smart person, and i am just not trying. i am stupid. i have to straighten up alittle bit.
i feel like when something good comes, i push it away.
why am i so fucking dumb