*UnAnSwErEd PrAyErS*
Sometimes I thank God for unanswered prayers
Remember when you're talkin' to the man upstairs
That just because he doesn't answer doesn't mean he don't care
Some of God's greatest gifts are unanswered prayers
--Garth Brooks
that song is really good.. if you havent heard it... you need to... i never really reaslized how true that song really was untill now. For the LONGEST time i prayed and prayed that "you know" (i would say it but i dont know who looks at this) would work out. but now i think about it. and all the stuff that had happened in the past week, like all the stuff he says to me when he is drunk and then doesnt remeber it the next day... i mean.. it hurts but its a mix.. between hurt and mad.. and now i think im realizing finally.. that it might have been a good thing it didnt work out.
And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain
But I'd of had to miss the dance
--Garth Brooks (yes again... l0l)
i know that i could have avoided all the hurt i am gettin right now.. i could have avoided all of it.. i didnt have to keep talkin to him.. but if i had been afraid to... for the fear of gettin hurt.. i would have missed out on all the fun, awesome, sweet stuff that happened.. i would have missed out on an awesome summer and an awesome person. but now as i look at all this.. i can see how it is better that it didnt work... that doens mean i didnt enjoy it tho.. alot of times i sit and wish i could just relive the fun times over and over again.. but then i realise that if i did that.. i wouldent have a chance to live.. im just begining to realize how both of those songs are so true... god really does know what he is doin... im slowly learnin how to deal with this kinda stuff.. i wasnt brought up to be able ot handle emotion well.. which is probly why this is all so hard to deal with.. im in a mix between mad and hurt and its SO hard to find a medium.. or just get out of that all together.. its hard.. but i was always brought up to be a storng person.. take care of things on my own, not ask anyone for help. adn i know i can handle this..with Gods help.. ill be just fine.. it will take time.. but i will be fine..
Remember when you're talkin' to the man upstairs
That just because he doesn't answer doesn't mean he don't care
Some of God's greatest gifts are unanswered prayers
--Garth Brooks
that song is really good.. if you havent heard it... you need to... i never really reaslized how true that song really was untill now. For the LONGEST time i prayed and prayed that "you know" (i would say it but i dont know who looks at this) would work out. but now i think about it. and all the stuff that had happened in the past week, like all the stuff he says to me when he is drunk and then doesnt remeber it the next day... i mean.. it hurts but its a mix.. between hurt and mad.. and now i think im realizing finally.. that it might have been a good thing it didnt work out.
And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain
But I'd of had to miss the dance
--Garth Brooks (yes again... l0l)
i know that i could have avoided all the hurt i am gettin right now.. i could have avoided all of it.. i didnt have to keep talkin to him.. but if i had been afraid to... for the fear of gettin hurt.. i would have missed out on all the fun, awesome, sweet stuff that happened.. i would have missed out on an awesome summer and an awesome person. but now as i look at all this.. i can see how it is better that it didnt work... that doens mean i didnt enjoy it tho.. alot of times i sit and wish i could just relive the fun times over and over again.. but then i realise that if i did that.. i wouldent have a chance to live.. im just begining to realize how both of those songs are so true... god really does know what he is doin... im slowly learnin how to deal with this kinda stuff.. i wasnt brought up to be able ot handle emotion well.. which is probly why this is all so hard to deal with.. im in a mix between mad and hurt and its SO hard to find a medium.. or just get out of that all together.. its hard.. but i was always brought up to be a storng person.. take care of things on my own, not ask anyone for help. adn i know i can handle this..with Gods help.. ill be just fine.. it will take time.. but i will be fine..