I have never been this low
-Sigh- Where do I begin...?
I pretty much only had to pass 2 classes to graduate, but right now it's looking like I won't pass one of those classes.
I don't know what is about the Mustang Daily that makes me so pathetic. It's like an allergic reaction. Some deep part of me, my whole entire being, is just COMPLETELY unable to do the work.
I am so utterly disappointed in myself. I can't even tell you. It's the end of the game and I can't find the nerve and the motivation to finish.
I understand that I've been depressed. I lost my job and on top of that I had found a place I was happy in and had to leave it for school. But as time passed, it wasn't about my job so much as the fact that I now had to catch up with myself. And it snowballed and my hidden shyness and fear of talking to people I think will look down on me prevented me from actually completing articles. And now I'm screwed.
Luckily for me, I have a game plan. I've decided to go to my advisor/department head tomorrow and talk to him about switching out the Mustang Daily class requirement with another internship. I'm fairly certain that this will pass muster because the Mustang Daily is supposed to teach you how to work in the field and the internship IS working in the field. And I just don't want to be in the newspaper field anymore. I think he'll approve of it... but I might still be screwed.
First of all, we have 4 weeks until the quarter is over. The paper work takes awhile, so it might not be processed until next quarter... Fine. I think it'll still work in that case. Then I have to find an internship. Hopefully that'll be relatively easy, as I plan to ask my editors at Tokyopop if they'd like to take me back. But then I have to get the internship approve and enroll in the class, which means I have to tell my mom.
That's right... I haven't told her about any of this. I'm not entirely sure how to break it to her that the Mustang Daily has literally made me this miserable. I know she won't be happy, but at least I have a game plan to fix things.
The big problem is actually money. I feel terrible because my plan means she has to pay for another quarter at school. Another $1,321 of registration fees. Plus, I'd probably have to put Tamar out for another quarter of me staying with him, which would mean that my mom has to pay my rent, my gas, etc.
I know this isn't going to go well for me... I just don't know what else to do.
And it could pretty much all go wrong if I'm unlucky, but I just can't do another quarter of the Mustang Daily! I can't! It makes me want to cry...
I pretty much only had to pass 2 classes to graduate, but right now it's looking like I won't pass one of those classes.
I don't know what is about the Mustang Daily that makes me so pathetic. It's like an allergic reaction. Some deep part of me, my whole entire being, is just COMPLETELY unable to do the work.
I am so utterly disappointed in myself. I can't even tell you. It's the end of the game and I can't find the nerve and the motivation to finish.
I understand that I've been depressed. I lost my job and on top of that I had found a place I was happy in and had to leave it for school. But as time passed, it wasn't about my job so much as the fact that I now had to catch up with myself. And it snowballed and my hidden shyness and fear of talking to people I think will look down on me prevented me from actually completing articles. And now I'm screwed.
Luckily for me, I have a game plan. I've decided to go to my advisor/department head tomorrow and talk to him about switching out the Mustang Daily class requirement with another internship. I'm fairly certain that this will pass muster because the Mustang Daily is supposed to teach you how to work in the field and the internship IS working in the field. And I just don't want to be in the newspaper field anymore. I think he'll approve of it... but I might still be screwed.
First of all, we have 4 weeks until the quarter is over. The paper work takes awhile, so it might not be processed until next quarter... Fine. I think it'll still work in that case. Then I have to find an internship. Hopefully that'll be relatively easy, as I plan to ask my editors at Tokyopop if they'd like to take me back. But then I have to get the internship approve and enroll in the class, which means I have to tell my mom.
That's right... I haven't told her about any of this. I'm not entirely sure how to break it to her that the Mustang Daily has literally made me this miserable. I know she won't be happy, but at least I have a game plan to fix things.
The big problem is actually money. I feel terrible because my plan means she has to pay for another quarter at school. Another $1,321 of registration fees. Plus, I'd probably have to put Tamar out for another quarter of me staying with him, which would mean that my mom has to pay my rent, my gas, etc.
I know this isn't going to go well for me... I just don't know what else to do.
And it could pretty much all go wrong if I'm unlucky, but I just can't do another quarter of the Mustang Daily! I can't! It makes me want to cry...