i want yoplait yogurt
pretty wrong about last week. good thing and what a relief. i had looked through jeffrey's phone and found some recent-ish text messages between him and claire and amber. two old female friends that both had things for him. claire lied about a bunch of shit to get his attention and amber got married and then said she still loved him and tried to get him back and he almost fell for it. anyway, i just misinterpreted a bunch of crap and got pissed. finally told him on friday. ugh. i made too much drama out of it.
so many things have happened since i stopped writing. things always happen. but who knew i'd be ready to settle down at this point in my life... definitely not me.
joseph and i broke up. i knew it was coming. it wasn't as bad for me as it was for him. but i couldn't deal with having an asshole for a boyfriend, even if he was going to 'try to change.' that never works.
so i decided to be free for a while.
i even tried dating two guys at once. pretty fun... also pretty bitchy of me. really bitchy. i don't know; i guess i'm kind of glad i did it, because it made me realize how much i love jeffrey and how i'd give anything up for him. i feel bad for hurting jeffrey... i feel bad for hurting cole. turns out i hurt him a lot more than i had realized. apparently he gave up because i gave up :/. good thing i did when i did, though.
i remember one night he made me dinner. we washed the dishes his roommate had left behind and i watched while he cooked. it was so ordinary, but it was oddly romantic.
but about jeffrey... best choice of my life. our first date was unbelievably amazing. we met up at sugar brown's and talked the entiiiiire time about so many things. we have so much in common! then some chicks came up to us and was like, 'i like hats, do you like hats? do you have a hat? i have a hat.' it went on for a while. so we left. and went to ihop. i had chocolate pancakes and he had... i think strawberry banana er something pancakes. and then before we knew it, it was late. and then we left. who knew that a first date could be so amazing?!
our second date was just as great. went to see 500 Days of Summer. he held my hand. i kissed him after it was over. haha then we didn't want to leave each other, so he took me to a park and we played on the playground aaand made out. then i had to see him all of the time. i hate being away from him for too long. it happened so fast... i didn't know what was happening until it was too late. i'm completely in love with him. and i can't find anything about him that would make me leave him. it's weird and it sounds stupid and cheesy. but i can't help it. it feels so real... i know it's real. it can't be fake this time because it feels so different. it feels so perfect.
so many things have happened since i stopped writing. things always happen. but who knew i'd be ready to settle down at this point in my life... definitely not me.
joseph and i broke up. i knew it was coming. it wasn't as bad for me as it was for him. but i couldn't deal with having an asshole for a boyfriend, even if he was going to 'try to change.' that never works.
so i decided to be free for a while.
i even tried dating two guys at once. pretty fun... also pretty bitchy of me. really bitchy. i don't know; i guess i'm kind of glad i did it, because it made me realize how much i love jeffrey and how i'd give anything up for him. i feel bad for hurting jeffrey... i feel bad for hurting cole. turns out i hurt him a lot more than i had realized. apparently he gave up because i gave up :/. good thing i did when i did, though.
i remember one night he made me dinner. we washed the dishes his roommate had left behind and i watched while he cooked. it was so ordinary, but it was oddly romantic.
but about jeffrey... best choice of my life. our first date was unbelievably amazing. we met up at sugar brown's and talked the entiiiiire time about so many things. we have so much in common! then some chicks came up to us and was like, 'i like hats, do you like hats? do you have a hat? i have a hat.' it went on for a while. so we left. and went to ihop. i had chocolate pancakes and he had... i think strawberry banana er something pancakes. and then before we knew it, it was late. and then we left. who knew that a first date could be so amazing?!
our second date was just as great. went to see 500 Days of Summer. he held my hand. i kissed him after it was over. haha then we didn't want to leave each other, so he took me to a park and we played on the playground aaand made out. then i had to see him all of the time. i hate being away from him for too long. it happened so fast... i didn't know what was happening until it was too late. i'm completely in love with him. and i can't find anything about him that would make me leave him. it's weird and it sounds stupid and cheesy. but i can't help it. it feels so real... i know it's real. it can't be fake this time because it feels so different. it feels so perfect.