chocolate covered kitty cats

[cootersgrl]

so i am feeling a little retrospective and a little reminesent tonight and i thought i would just throw some things out there. I was driving home from another crappy ass day at work and listenting to an old song from high school (graduation by vitamin c) and i started thinking to myself where did i think i would be at this time in my life? I know i didnt think i would have a failed marriage, still living with family, and a job that i detest more and more everyday. so i tried to remember where i went wrong, which decision led to this. and i couldnt think of a single event that would have caused this. but as sucky as everything seems i also think that this is where i am supposed to be right now, even thought its not what i want it to be.but wasnt it just yesterday i had a history test and not a $600.00 car payment, tardy for class not sitting in rush hour traffic for over an hour. when did we grow up? am i grown up? i dont feel like it, i am trying to come to terms with this being my life all the while waiting for elaine to come home so we can play. its like my life has a split personality. well
this probably doesnt make much sense and you are worse off for having read it, but just thinking out loud.
"tomorrows another day, and i am thirsty anyway, so bring on the rain"