Why?
i just have to post in frustration!! and i cant on FB becuse i dont want my family seeing... so the whole month of November i had not *special* friend vist me... even rick noticed well i didnt get to excited... i waited tell the 1st to test and both said no...so i didnt get to upset i was not execpting break or for things to go my way...but tonight i am feeling like i want to cry becuse after being 1 mo and a week late guss who found there way to vist.... ya my *friend* that i would rather not see... I have been comming up with more gray hair and having hot flashes like hell i get so hot and then so cold and night sweats...mom said goodness are you going through menopause... and come to think of it im doing exactly what she did when she went through it... so i guss thats my body telling me im done... even though i never got to do what i was spouse to do reproduce... guss i just need to accept what cards have been delt to me.....