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gahhh. omg i'm like sooo wanting to cry right now you have no idea. today was just totally wrong and i'm soo sick of everything going wrong in my life! when i say everything i mean EVERYTHING went wrong today. In this morning, i woke up to the worst song ever on the radio..some song by simon and garfunkle and then my brother hogged the shower so i couldn't take one and i had to wear my sister's jacket because all of mine were in the wash, and then i had to wait around for my brother to take me to school when my mom or sister could have easily taken me earilier..and when i got to school i didn't get to talk to Sam or Vicky or Andi because she's on a damn cruise. and then we had to watch a boring movie about plate techtonics and it just goes on and on. in a.p.e history i got yelled at by stupid Mrs. Tanner when i wasn't talking and at break i was just like sitting there trying to talk to Sam but not really succeeding and then i went to chorus where Anna stole my solo in "How Can I Keep From Singing" and then i was the only alto singing because Amy was sick and all the rest of the altos are freshman and they all talk in the back row so i'm like the only one singing and i get pissed off and blow up at them for not singing and everyone tells me to shut the fuck up and so i'm almost crying, then we get a break in chorus and Dave comes over and bothers me and then we had to practice the songs like 50 more times and then at lunch i tried to play nine square and totally sucked and i also tried to talk to Sam again..and again i failed. and last in math Mrs. Ebert was all pissy and sick and i still was pissed off at everyone from chorus and then after school i had to sell girl scout cookies and it was just the worst day! and i don't know if i really want to post this or not...but then maybe people who read it will realize that i'm not perfect like everyone thinks and i am not always happy and when i'm not happy i just cover it up but i'm so fucking tired of it all. i just want to cry but i can't and i don't want to fucking do anything except get a hug or cry but neither is gonna happen so why bother. i might as well just shrivel up in a corner and die and no one would notice...