Late Breaking News
It just occurred to me that I haven't made any official announcement of my decisions about Boston University and my education. Its been a rough semester... one that has given me many lessons and one that has shown me a great deal... both about my character, my adaptability as well as my desires and dreams. I realized since I've been gone that I appriciate my parents sooooooooo much more. I've been able to say that I love them and feel it and mean it... that takes a lot and anyone who knows me well would probably really understand what I mean. I appriciate Maine so much more... the quiet, the calmness, the seasons/weather... yeah Boston isnt much different in weather... but it IS!!!! Maine isn't as humid ALL THE TIME... seriously Boston weather... ick. Anyway... I realized that if and when I go to get my MDIV I dont want it to be all heady and intellectual... I felt like any faith I had was being squeezed out of me like I was a sponge... its awful. I want to see that this can be applied to something useful. I want teachers who are personable. I dont like stuffy, never have, never will. I'm pretty down to earth and I'm all heart... and very little briany-lofitness. I have my brainy moments... but no I dont like being there all the time. My grades have been a disaster... at least in my REQUIRED first year classes. Tests are murder. As for papers... B-, B+, B+, B+ and A-... someone told me I should go into writing lol. Maybe. I dunno. Its really made me think, along with a few other factors, about ministry and itinerancy. I do want to do ministry, and ideally parish ministry would be great... but Im not really sure if Im too keen on the whole moving around frequent sorta thing... say Ken has a good job and we're in Portland and I get moved to Fort Kent... do you really think that Im gonna make him move especially if he has a good paying job and hes the one primarily supporting our family? I dont see either one of us being happy with that... even if ministry is something I want to do... maybe I should think about local pastor or something. I'm still in the indecisive stages on that and I have lots of things Im tossing around and praying about... but I think even with all of my doubts something still says get your MDIV... even if you dont use it you'll have it if you desire to at some point. So heres the deal... I'm DEFINATELY leaving Boston. Other than that I'm not totally sure yet... I am taking the spring semester off... mainly because its a little late to apply to Bangor and two I think I need the time to pray and think about it. I'm applying to jobs in Portland, Augusta and Bangor... Portland and Bangor because I can take classes for my MDIV while still working and living in Maine. Augusta, cause well, its home and I can at least live there til August and then do my moving to Portland or Bangor. There are some jobs... one especially in portland... that have me excited and if you care to know IM or email me and ask... I would love to talk to you. Having others to bounce this off would be great. I think thats the hard part about this... only a few people have been around to listen. I still have one other person I could consult... but I have yet to approach him because I need to be sure of what I think and feel before he challenges me with questions I dont know how to answer or how I feel about them. I do know this... Im no longer as scared. I was so depressed before break... afraid... lost... but im so relaxed and relieved... I think I am making the right decision... Im leaving Boston, but I'm not forgetting about my MDIV and I still desire to get it; I'm keeping my options for ministry open and Im exploring the possibilities.
A few ideas I've considered recently
-Youth Ministry/work
-Mission work (one job ive looked at combines both of these first options)
-College ministry (college chaplin perhaps)
-Local Pastor
there are always the old pipedreams that return to me and beg my attention
-writing - fiction and non fictional books
-music - trombone performance
-art... thats not so defined
but anyway... i need to read 200 pages. I should try to be studious...
A few ideas I've considered recently
-Youth Ministry/work
-Mission work (one job ive looked at combines both of these first options)
-College ministry (college chaplin perhaps)
-Local Pastor
there are always the old pipedreams that return to me and beg my attention
-writing - fiction and non fictional books
-music - trombone performance
-art... thats not so defined
but anyway... i need to read 200 pages. I should try to be studious...