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Michael is the one person I have ever known to make me totally and completely make my feel like the most terrible person in the entire world. He had a talk with me last night. I cried because I feel like a total jerk and idiot, but he and I are just two people that clash... like crazy! I believe in God, he doesn't; which I'm cool with, but he's not. He says that I judge, but I DON'T!!! He psyco analyzes me, and I take it as it is! GAH!!!!! *huff puff*
He is aparently also the one person in the world who makes me the most angry as well. Geez, if you just listened to what he said to me. I don't know what made me attracted to him in the first place. Just listening to what he was saying about me, and just hearing it all made me hate myself for even being with him in the first place. I just feel like cussing him out, and I don't get that feeling... like ever. But I forgive him, I may not fully forgive him now, but in a few days I'll make peace with it. It's finally done. We are not tight friends, and we won't tell each other what's going on, but we can still be in the same room with our other friends. He and I won't call each other, but we can still sit next together at the table with our friends. Don't hate each other, but don't love each other either. Competely neutral. I like that, and I won't feel guilty for doing whatever I was doing. BUT HE STILL MAKES ME ANGRY! GAH! ... LOL, I'll get over it when I sleep some more tonight. :P
Winter break started, well, yesterday. But I get to go home with Terrie today. Should be fun, I don't see Terrie as much as I would like to. She's either sleeping, studying, in class or sleeping. LOL. She took on a lot this semester. Chemistry = EW! I don't know how she can willingly take that class. Er... or maybe it's for the nursing program. HA! That would make more sense. LOL.
So all the boys who like me have fizzled out, sort of. But they all have an understanding that I am indifferent among them and I am not going to choose when I don't have a preferance. Sounds a bit mean when I read what I typed there... But that's how it is, and everyone is cool with it. ^^
I keep meaning to start going to the campus councelers... but then I don't feel like it's necissary anymore when I am with my friends. My friends are my councelors... and they are my Anti-Drug. LOL! Funny stuff.
Till next time LJ,
Stazia.
He is aparently also the one person in the world who makes me the most angry as well. Geez, if you just listened to what he said to me. I don't know what made me attracted to him in the first place. Just listening to what he was saying about me, and just hearing it all made me hate myself for even being with him in the first place. I just feel like cussing him out, and I don't get that feeling... like ever. But I forgive him, I may not fully forgive him now, but in a few days I'll make peace with it. It's finally done. We are not tight friends, and we won't tell each other what's going on, but we can still be in the same room with our other friends. He and I won't call each other, but we can still sit next together at the table with our friends. Don't hate each other, but don't love each other either. Competely neutral. I like that, and I won't feel guilty for doing whatever I was doing. BUT HE STILL MAKES ME ANGRY! GAH! ... LOL, I'll get over it when I sleep some more tonight. :P
Winter break started, well, yesterday. But I get to go home with Terrie today. Should be fun, I don't see Terrie as much as I would like to. She's either sleeping, studying, in class or sleeping. LOL. She took on a lot this semester. Chemistry = EW! I don't know how she can willingly take that class. Er... or maybe it's for the nursing program. HA! That would make more sense. LOL.
So all the boys who like me have fizzled out, sort of. But they all have an understanding that I am indifferent among them and I am not going to choose when I don't have a preferance. Sounds a bit mean when I read what I typed there... But that's how it is, and everyone is cool with it. ^^
I keep meaning to start going to the campus councelers... but then I don't feel like it's necissary anymore when I am with my friends. My friends are my councelors... and they are my Anti-Drug. LOL! Funny stuff.
Till next time LJ,
Stazia.