When did I ever say you could control anything that Leigh does? All I said is that you have an influence over her as every best friend does over another, and Leigh will even admit that.
And I have never yelled at you for things Leigh has done, I mean fuck I haven't even yelled at Leigh for those. I was just telling you how I feel about the things she has pulled on me, and I was trying to give you an understanding of why I am feeling and acting the way I am acting. Because you know what, getting your heart broken sucks. I feel like I get no credit for being a good person through this. I have taken and taken and kept my mouth shut to everyone else and even in large part to Leigh. If she asked me to not bring it up, I wouldn't bring it up. I hate that I am still being criticized by people (not you just people in general).
Normally when a friend is having a really shitty time with things, people that care call her//him to see if he//her is okay.
If you do remember, I called you alot to make sure you were alright when your relationship was on the brink of ending. I mean at first you called me, but as soon as I found out what a tough time you were having I would call, im you, or at the very least text you. I just can't understand how if you are my friend, like you say you are, how you wouldn't call, im me, or text me just to see if I was ok.
And when my relationship actually ended, you called me zero times and Imed me once and that was to bitch at me for something.
Actions speak far louder than words, and by your actions, it seems like you really don't care how I'm doing.
Also I'm pretty sure that is not possible to yell through a computer, because last time I checked computers didn't have mouths.
I am rather calmy sitting here and typing how I feel. If I am wrong for having feelings, then I might as well not even live.
I have never acted like you've been after me. I have acted upset, and that is because I feel like after everything I have done for you, I don't feel like you've really bothered yourself with me when I need you the most. If you were a real friend I wouldn't have to call you, and I wouldn't have to come begging for my help, you should make the effort like I did for you, because you never asked me to help you, I helped you because I truely did and do care about you, and it hurt me to see you in the situation that you were in.
I just want you to realize that you haven't really even made an effort to be there for me.
About the mistake things, I make mistakes all the time. I mean shit, I fuck up alot of things. I mean I guess I couldn't be what Leigh wanted so, I was a failure in that respect. And the spelling thing was just busting your balls. :]
I just want you to hear it from me, I don't hate you. I don't think your after me about anything. Shit I'm not even mad at you. But I am dissappointed in the fact that you have made no effort to help me through this the way that I put myself out there and came up with idea after idea to help you. And I just feel bad on top of everything else, because from my point of view it's like one of my best friends (You really did become one of my complete best friends) doesn't really care all that much about me.
Please don't think that I'm yelling because I'm not, I'm talking to you just like I used to on the phone when I used to say "Just Breathe Brianne, slow down and Just Breathe."
I just wish somebody would cut me a little slack. This has been rough on me, and I'm doing the best I can do.
Anyways, I hope you have a safe trip and that you stay safe while your down there and out of trouble. And I hope you have alot of fun too. Make sure somebody calls me at least to let me know you got home alright.
All I said is that you have an influence over her as every best friend does over another, and Leigh will even admit that.
And I have never yelled at you for things Leigh has done, I mean fuck I haven't even yelled at Leigh for those. I was just telling you how I feel about the things she has pulled on me, and I was trying to give you an understanding of why I am feeling and acting the way I am acting. Because you know what, getting your heart broken sucks. I feel like I get no credit for being a good person through this. I have taken and taken and kept my mouth shut to everyone else and even in large part to Leigh. If she asked me to not bring it up, I wouldn't bring it up. I hate that I am still being criticized by people (not you just people in general).
Normally when a friend is having a really shitty time with things, people that care call her//him to see if he//her is okay.
If you do remember, I called you alot to make sure you were alright when your relationship was on the brink of ending. I mean at first you called me, but as soon as I found out what a tough time you were having I would call, im you, or at the very least text you. I just can't understand how if you are my friend, like you say you are, how you wouldn't call, im me, or text me just to see if I was ok.
And when my relationship actually ended, you called me zero times and Imed me once and that was to bitch at me for something.
Actions speak far louder than words, and by your actions, it seems like you really don't care how I'm doing.
Also I'm pretty sure that is not possible to yell through a computer, because last time I checked computers didn't have mouths.
I am rather calmy sitting here and typing how I feel. If I am wrong for having feelings, then I might as well not even live.
I have never acted like you've been after me.
I have acted upset, and that is because I feel like after everything I have done for you, I don't feel like you've really bothered yourself with me when I need you the most. If you were a real friend I wouldn't have to call you, and I wouldn't have to come begging for my help, you should make the effort like I did for you, because you never asked me to help you, I helped you because I truely did and do care about you, and it hurt me to see you in the situation that you were in.
I just want you to realize that you haven't really even made an effort to be there for me.
About the mistake things, I make mistakes all the time. I mean shit, I fuck up alot of things. I mean I guess I couldn't be what Leigh wanted so, I was a failure in that respect. And the spelling thing was just busting your balls. :]
I just want you to hear it from me, I don't hate you.
I don't think your after me about anything.
Shit I'm not even mad at you.
But I am dissappointed in the fact that you have made no effort to help me through this the way that I put myself out there and came up with idea after idea to help you.
And I just feel bad on top of everything else, because from my point of view it's like one of my best friends (You really did become one of my complete best friends) doesn't really care all that much about me.
Please don't think that I'm yelling because I'm not, I'm talking to you just like I used to on the phone when I used to say "Just Breathe Brianne, slow down and Just Breathe."
I just wish somebody would cut me a little slack.
This has been rough on me, and I'm doing the best I can do.
Anyways, I hope you have a safe trip and that you stay safe while your down there and out of trouble. And I hope you have alot of fun too. Make sure somebody calls me at least to let me know you got home alright.
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we're leaving soon...
I'll call you when we get there :D
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I'm tired of drama on every level.
You guys don't need to call if you don't want to.
I just to make sure you guys get back in one peice.
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