Dear Brianne, A. Here's the thing, You asked me to go and at first I thought I could go and then my mom and dad balked. So when I said I couldn't go you had every right to ask whoever you wanted to, to take me place. So really I am getting replaced. B. I don't really care when you asked him, but I'm sure you had to know that he liked her, because I knew that even before I went on vacation. That being said, he is all of your friend so you have every right to ask whoever you want. There is no reason for me to be upset with that. C. First off the word is Appreciate not "Appriciate". And Second I only said "the FOUR of you" because I didn't find out untill last night that he was going. And I was upset because when I asked Leigh about who was going and such yesterday she conveniently failed to mention he was going. I phrased it as "the FOUR of you" because I wanted her to know that I found out. D. Fact: I got hurt, it doesn't matter if it was intentional or not, it happened. I have never said, "I hate Brianne" to a single soul. I am upset that you have been acting like you have forgotten all the things I've done for you and the special friendship we came to develop. All the times I took your phone calls when noone else would, all the times I made you remember that running into a telephone pole wasn't a good idea, and how I convinced you that your relationship wasn't over and how I came up with the idea for the letter that really knocked some sense into Dustin. I did everything I could think of when you were going through hard times. But where were you when I needed you most? I don't think one conversation online really cuts it. I just wish you would be here for me, 'cause noone really seems to care about how I feel about this whole situation. You should have called, and you shouldn't always believe everything you read in the papers.
Love, Dave
Ps. Brianne once you go through the kind of shit I've had to go through, (ex. Getting dumped on vacation without reason or warning what so ever, and then less than two weeks later finding out the girl you love is already dating someone else after you the person she is dating promised you that he would stay out of things for awhile so that you could figure out which way is up and which way is down.) you may talk to me about how I'm supposed to act. To be blunt I feel like I've been a pretty damn good sport. I've not once yelled at anyone or even acted mad, I've taken alot and kept my mouth shut when I easily could have gone off the deep end. Sure I've fucked some things up, and I'm sorry for that and I am far from perfect, but I am doing my best to get this behind me. It just doesn't help all that much when everyone else knows what's going on except for me and then I end up finding out about it on accident when someone tells me something without my asking. But anyways I'm done giving a shit. I just don't see why she still can't come right out and tell me what the hell is going on. I mean for christ's sake, I've never even yelled at the girl.
Pss. I would appreciate it if you wouldn't lecture me about this.
A. you can't be replaced if your ticket was never bought, it was a thought that's all. B. Actually, I know you feel that you are the only one that doesn't find out about stuff... but if you do remember I didn't even find out you and Leigh were dating till after you'd been dating for about two weeks. So do you think I even knew he liked her? Steve, like Leigh, doesn't share... so I didn't know. C. I'm sorry dear I made a TYPE-O I guess you've never done so... I'm sorry I'm not as perfect as you. Also, Leigh and I just got our nails done yesterday and I still have trouble typing but I guess everything has to be perfect for you so how silly of me not to use spell check on a comment to a friend? Maybe if you ever talked to me any more, you could have asked me and I would have told you. You said the four like we all did something against you. D. You don't call me either and when friends I have known for years tell me things you say about me, I think I can be a lil hesitant to call you. So maybe before you go off on me for not calling you... think "Hey I could call her too!" cuz Every time you ever called I listened to you too... except maybe one time when my mom was swearing at me for driving and talking to you... and I ignored her until so started to say it louder and I didn't want you to hear. so... even though you are being a tid bit mean in the whole comment( and maybe you thought different my comment wasn't trying to be mean or attacking at all) I would still pick up for you.
P.S. I was trying to be there for you Dave, people go through shit no one can really have the same experience as another but they can at least try to help. But I guess you're not accepting any of my words so I'll make sure not to try and help out again. Also, although you may think different I can't control a thing Leigh does... so I'd APPRECIATE it if you didn't yell at me about something she has done. And finally, I wasn't trying to lecture you on a thing, you just keep acting like I'm after you about everything so that's how you see it.
P.s.s I'll put this through spell check just to fit your standards... happy?
When did I ever say you could control anything that Leigh does? All I said is that you have an influence over her as every best friend does over another, and Leigh will even admit that.
And I have never yelled at you for things Leigh has done, I mean fuck I haven't even yelled at Leigh for those. I was just telling you how I feel about the things she has pulled on me, and I was trying to give you an understanding of why I am feeling and acting the way I am acting. Because you know what, getting your heart broken sucks. I feel like I get no credit for being a good person through this. I have taken and taken and kept my mouth shut to everyone else and even in large part to Leigh. If she asked me to not bring it up, I wouldn't bring it up. I hate that I am still being criticized by people (not you just people in general).
Normally when a friend is having a really shitty time with things, people that care call her//him to see if he//her is okay.
If you do remember, I called you alot to make sure you were alright when your relationship was on the brink of ending. I mean at first you called me, but as soon as I found out what a tough time you were having I would call, im you, or at the very least text you. I just can't understand how if you are my friend, like you say you are, how you wouldn't call, im me, or text me just to see if I was ok.
And when my relationship actually ended, you called me zero times and Imed me once and that was to bitch at me for something.
Actions speak far louder than words, and by your actions, it seems like you really don't care how I'm doing.
Also I'm pretty sure that is not possible to yell through a computer, because last time I checked computers didn't have mouths.
I am rather calmy sitting here and typing how I feel. If I am wrong for having feelings, then I might as well not even live.
I have never acted like you've been after me. I have acted upset, and that is because I feel like after everything I have done for you, I don't feel like you've really bothered yourself with me when I need you the most. If you were a real friend I wouldn't have to call you, and I wouldn't have to come begging for my help, you should make the effort like I did for you, because you never asked me to help you, I helped you because I truely did and do care about you, and it hurt me to see you in the situation that you were in.
I just want you to realize that you haven't really even made an effort to be there for me.
About the mistake things, I make mistakes all the time. I mean shit, I fuck up alot of things. I mean I guess I couldn't be what Leigh wanted so, I was a failure in that respect. And the spelling thing was just busting your balls. :]
I just want you to hear it from me, I don't hate you. I don't think your after me about anything. Shit I'm not even mad at you. But I am dissappointed in the fact that you have made no effort to help me through this the way that I put myself out there and came up with idea after idea to help you. And I just feel bad on top of everything else, because from my point of view it's like one of my best friends (You really did become one of my complete best friends) doesn't really care all that much about me.
Please don't think that I'm yelling because I'm not, I'm talking to you just like I used to on the phone when I used to say "Just Breathe Brianne, slow down and Just Breathe."
I just wish somebody would cut me a little slack. This has been rough on me, and I'm doing the best I can do.
Anyways, I hope you have a safe trip and that you stay safe while your down there and out of trouble. And I hope you have alot of fun too. Make sure somebody calls me at least to let me know you got home alright.
A. Here's the thing, You asked me to go and at first I thought I could go and then my mom and dad balked. So when I said I couldn't go you had every right to ask whoever you wanted to, to take me place. So really I am getting replaced.
B. I don't really care when you asked him, but I'm sure you had to know that he liked her, because I knew that even before I went on vacation. That being said, he is all of your friend so you have every right to ask whoever you want. There is no reason for me to be upset with that.
C. First off the word is Appreciate not "Appriciate". And Second I only said "the FOUR of you" because I didn't find out untill last night that he was going. And I was upset because when I asked Leigh about who was going and such yesterday she conveniently failed to mention he was going. I phrased it as "the FOUR of you" because I wanted her to know that I found out.
D. Fact: I got hurt, it doesn't matter if it was intentional or not, it happened. I have never said, "I hate Brianne" to a single soul. I am upset that you have been acting like you have forgotten all the things I've done for you and the special friendship we came to develop. All the times I took your phone calls when noone else would, all the times I made you remember that running into a telephone pole wasn't a good idea, and how I convinced you that your relationship wasn't over and how I came up with the idea for the letter that really knocked some sense into Dustin. I did everything I could think of when you were going through hard times. But where were you when I needed you most? I don't think one conversation online really cuts it. I just wish you would be here for me, 'cause noone really seems to care about how I feel about this whole situation. You should have called, and you shouldn't always believe everything you read in the papers.
Love,
Dave
Ps. Brianne once you go through the kind of shit I've had to go through, (ex. Getting dumped on vacation without reason or warning what so ever, and then less than two weeks later finding out the girl you love is already dating someone else after you the person she is dating promised you that he would stay out of things for awhile so that you could figure out which way is up and which way is down.) you may talk to me about how I'm supposed to act. To be blunt I feel like I've been a pretty damn good sport. I've not once yelled at anyone or even acted mad, I've taken alot and kept my mouth shut when I easily could have gone off the deep end. Sure I've fucked some things up, and I'm sorry for that and I am far from perfect, but I am doing my best to get this behind me. It just doesn't help all that much when everyone else knows what's going on except for me and then I end up finding out about it on accident when someone tells me something without my asking. But anyways I'm done giving a shit. I just don't see why she still can't come right out and tell me what the hell is going on. I mean for christ's sake, I've never even yelled at the girl.
Pss. I would appreciate it if you wouldn't lecture me about this.
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B. Actually, I know you feel that you are the only one that doesn't find out about stuff... but if you do remember I didn't even find out you and Leigh were dating till after you'd been dating for about two weeks. So do you think I even knew he liked her? Steve, like Leigh, doesn't share... so I didn't know.
C. I'm sorry dear I made a TYPE-O I guess you've never done so... I'm sorry I'm not as perfect as you. Also, Leigh and I just got our nails done yesterday and I still have trouble typing but I guess everything has to be perfect for you so how silly of me not to use spell check on a comment to a friend? Maybe if you ever talked to me any more, you could have asked me and I would have told you. You said the four like we all did something against you.
D. You don't call me either and when friends I have known for years tell me things you say about me, I think I can be a lil hesitant to call you. So maybe before you go off on me for not calling you... think "Hey I could call her too!" cuz Every time you ever called I listened to you too... except maybe one time when my mom was swearing at me for driving and talking to you... and I ignored her until so started to say it louder and I didn't want you to hear. so... even though you are being a tid bit mean in the whole comment( and maybe you thought different my comment wasn't trying to be mean or attacking at all) I would still pick up for you.
P.S. I was trying to be there for you Dave, people go through shit no one can really have the same experience as another but they can at least try to help. But I guess you're not accepting any of my words so I'll make sure not to try and help out again. Also, although you may think different I can't control a thing Leigh does... so I'd APPRECIATE it if you didn't yell at me about something she has done. And finally, I wasn't trying to lecture you on a thing, you just keep acting like I'm after you about everything so that's how you see it.
P.s.s I'll put this through spell check just to fit your standards... happy?
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All I said is that you have an influence over her as every best friend does over another, and Leigh will even admit that.
And I have never yelled at you for things Leigh has done, I mean fuck I haven't even yelled at Leigh for those. I was just telling you how I feel about the things she has pulled on me, and I was trying to give you an understanding of why I am feeling and acting the way I am acting. Because you know what, getting your heart broken sucks. I feel like I get no credit for being a good person through this. I have taken and taken and kept my mouth shut to everyone else and even in large part to Leigh. If she asked me to not bring it up, I wouldn't bring it up. I hate that I am still being criticized by people (not you just people in general).
Normally when a friend is having a really shitty time with things, people that care call her//him to see if he//her is okay.
If you do remember, I called you alot to make sure you were alright when your relationship was on the brink of ending. I mean at first you called me, but as soon as I found out what a tough time you were having I would call, im you, or at the very least text you. I just can't understand how if you are my friend, like you say you are, how you wouldn't call, im me, or text me just to see if I was ok.
And when my relationship actually ended, you called me zero times and Imed me once and that was to bitch at me for something.
Actions speak far louder than words, and by your actions, it seems like you really don't care how I'm doing.
Also I'm pretty sure that is not possible to yell through a computer, because last time I checked computers didn't have mouths.
I am rather calmy sitting here and typing how I feel. If I am wrong for having feelings, then I might as well not even live.
I have never acted like you've been after me.
I have acted upset, and that is because I feel like after everything I have done for you, I don't feel like you've really bothered yourself with me when I need you the most. If you were a real friend I wouldn't have to call you, and I wouldn't have to come begging for my help, you should make the effort like I did for you, because you never asked me to help you, I helped you because I truely did and do care about you, and it hurt me to see you in the situation that you were in.
I just want you to realize that you haven't really even made an effort to be there for me.
About the mistake things, I make mistakes all the time. I mean shit, I fuck up alot of things. I mean I guess I couldn't be what Leigh wanted so, I was a failure in that respect. And the spelling thing was just busting your balls. :]
I just want you to hear it from me, I don't hate you.
I don't think your after me about anything.
Shit I'm not even mad at you.
But I am dissappointed in the fact that you have made no effort to help me through this the way that I put myself out there and came up with idea after idea to help you.
And I just feel bad on top of everything else, because from my point of view it's like one of my best friends (You really did become one of my complete best friends) doesn't really care all that much about me.
Please don't think that I'm yelling because I'm not, I'm talking to you just like I used to on the phone when I used to say "Just Breathe Brianne, slow down and Just Breathe."
I just wish somebody would cut me a little slack.
This has been rough on me, and I'm doing the best I can do.
Anyways, I hope you have a safe trip and that you stay safe while your down there and out of trouble. And I hope you have alot of fun too. Make sure somebody calls me at least to let me know you got home alright.
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we're leaving soon...
I'll call you when we get there :D
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I'm tired of drama on every level.
You guys don't need to call if you don't want to.
I just to make sure you guys get back in one peice.
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