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We had our first real fight yesterday. The first one involving not talking to each other. One which involved yelling at each other on the west lawn. I never saw that side of him. I didnt like it. Dinner was weird. I walked away mad and called someone i havent really talked to in 3 months. I was questioned on my beliefs last week and told that i was basically wrong. We all secretly hate each other in my group. Chris and Kelby and I are the only people with a true relationship. We hate each other so much yet we smile at each other and eat dinner together. Pretending nothing is wrong until we walk away and we then complain about everyone. He said sorry later last night. He's like my best friend. I couldnt stand not talking to him. i guess i really do love him. college is to easy. i dont know what i want to do for the rest of my life. Cars comes out tomorrow. that movie makes me laugh. im watching it with bradley tomorrow that should be nice. i think my roommates hate me. i dont understand myself. my room is always to cold. my drama teacher doesnt like me. there is nothing to do in town. besides drink and that doesnt even happen that often. i should be doing better, but for some reason im not. i dont like my hair, im cutting it. i took a personality test and my personality sucks. i hate people. Everything seems to be falling apart. college is not what i thought it would be. college isnt for everyone. maybe its not for me...hm.