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So im sittin here working on my english paper thats due for tomorrow. nice job on my part there. but yeah. this paper has to be 4-5 pages long about one word. i have the word despair and right now im feeling alot of it. shit i dont really want to write about this word because it just gets me thinking about something, well really everything. life itself and why i am even here? what do i have to live for? is there any reason why i should live anymore because so far its like theres nothing left. im just losing it inside. i dont care what everyone thinks about this entry. this is coming from my heart well if there is even one still there anymore. :/. people said to me life wasn't going to be easy and shit right now its not anymore. i just feel like i have no point on living anymore. 3 more days until my 18th birthday then what. im a adult pretty much. whats left to go?
The thing is i never felt like this before. i just dont know anymore. i just better stop before i go to far. anyways this weekend i went out to my cousins house and hanged out with him this weekend. staied up and played some video games. thinking again about somethings. im sorry i havent updated like i use to anymore. its just that somethings are better left un said than said i guess.
Well thats really it for today. im out. leave a comment if you like. ryan.
The thing is i never felt like this before. i just dont know anymore. i just better stop before i go to far. anyways this weekend i went out to my cousins house and hanged out with him this weekend. staied up and played some video games. thinking again about somethings. im sorry i havent updated like i use to anymore. its just that somethings are better left un said than said i guess.
Well thats really it for today. im out. leave a comment if you like. ryan.