Well technically it's Thursday, which means that tomorrow is our rehearsal dinner and in two days I'll be married. I'm stressed out, having really bad anxiety problems, and am really, really confused
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I linked over here from a community where you posted a question, and I have to say that my heart goes out for how much pain you were in when you wrote some of those entries.
For your own privacy's sake, I would really recommend friends-locking those posts. Now that you are married, leaving these wrenching, difficult entries open to the world to read is as much a betrayal of the union as you feel Geoff's porn habit was -- probably more, because porn is really not about the people featured in it, and these posts are intensely, personally, about Geoff and your relationship with him. Even worse, they're pictures of a time in the past, and as such they misrepresent all the good things that you must have in your life in order to stay with him.
I know you don't know me. You have every right to feel taken aback. Feel free to dismiss my comment if you like. Just know that if you leave these posts unlocked, you'll be leaving on display a very messy time in your life that will probably invite comments from future well-intentioned (or not so well-intentioned) internet strangers.
I think for me, to "lock" the past away is to ignore the fact that it ever happened. I treasure the bad as well as the good - it makes us who we are. I'm glad we went through those times because we've emerged stronger than ever.
I guess if people want to make nasty/snide comments about stuff that was written in frustration well over six months ago, when I clearly haven't used my journal much at all (and still don't since this response is WAY after the fact haha) then that's their issue. People who feel the need to look down on others (especially for the past) are probably taking their insecurities out on others. Life has taught me to be rubber, not glue.
For your own privacy's sake, I would really recommend friends-locking those posts. Now that you are married, leaving these wrenching, difficult entries open to the world to read is as much a betrayal of the union as you feel Geoff's porn habit was -- probably more, because porn is really not about the people featured in it, and these posts are intensely, personally, about Geoff and your relationship with him. Even worse, they're pictures of a time in the past, and as such they misrepresent all the good things that you must have in your life in order to stay with him.
I know you don't know me. You have every right to feel taken aback. Feel free to dismiss my comment if you like. Just know that if you leave these posts unlocked, you'll be leaving on display a very messy time in your life that will probably invite comments from future well-intentioned (or not so well-intentioned) internet strangers.
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I guess if people want to make nasty/snide comments about stuff that was written in frustration well over six months ago, when I clearly haven't used my journal much at all (and still don't since this response is WAY after the fact haha) then that's their issue. People who feel the need to look down on others (especially for the past) are probably taking their insecurities out on others. Life has taught me to be rubber, not glue.
Thanks for the comment/concern though! :)
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