Wow
Well i'm home again...i got tired of everything. I made another bad mistake and almost killed myself again and this time i'm ready to get sober. God showed me alot this weekend and it made me realize that i cant live with out him. My life was fun but i knew i wasnt goin to go anywhere and i didnt have the money to get my own place so i swallowed my pride and came home. best thing i've ever done. its hard but God id helping me alot. i dont stop praying all day. i havent takin or done anything sence sunday. i know thats not along time for everyone else but it is for me. i'm ready to change and i dont care what you think of me because in a few months i wont see any of you anyway. not to be mean but its true. God showed me what i have to do for him and it scared the crap out of me. he showed me my life if i didnt change fast. so thats what i'm goin to do. few people know what happend and nobody knows what i know to be true about my future life. i guess theres no bother in putting this in here. i dont think anyone cares and thats cool. i dont think they should. i've been so confussed sence dad died and now its clear. i have no pride anymore. i let go and let God. i see why the bible says pride is a sin.