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ATTENTION!
hey.
i really think this is the end of this thing. I have a great story i want to save and an entry.. but then i may be done. I'm so confused on what i have done that no amount of writing will ever make me feel better. but i am glad for teh ability to write.
i've had alot of great years and i'm sure some of you had fun reading about them. but lately, i dunno if its growing up, or what, but i have so manyother emotions inside me that i can't really express or don't want to.
for those who know exactly about the vince situation, I'm so confused.. what the hell did i get myself into? there is so much that happened after that night, more specifically, the following morning, that i don't even wnat to tell myself. but for some reason, and no it's not cuz i love him, i'm not upset they happened. i love him alot just not in the way everyone seems to think so.
for those who know about the steph situation. you know more that me probably. something happened but the lack of communication on both parts screwed us over. I've heard things and witnessed so many other things i dunno whats reality and whats not. something has changed. but i still lover her and hope she gets someone to help , cuz i'm not doing a good job anymore.
for those who know about march 2003, god bless you for still being my friend today. that was the lowest point in my life and i'm ashamed of it, but it did make me stonger. and makes me who i am today. someone who isnt afraid to live life and to make drunken mistakes. no matter how incriminating they will be on monday. lol. i'm happy to live and i'm happy that i have people in my life who stick with me and no matter how drunk or how retarded or how i sound really gay when i laugh. most of all i'm glad i have friends.
I'm sorry. but sometimes i need to let go of something that i love to grow stronger. and i think maybe this time i'm not gonna regret doing it.
just i need to pick what thing i'm going to let you.
if you have a need to know whats going on with me, im me.
rainbowbright745@aol.com
or if i have some earth shattering news i'll be back.
don't cry lol
thanks to everyonee
hey.
i really think this is the end of this thing. I have a great story i want to save and an entry.. but then i may be done. I'm so confused on what i have done that no amount of writing will ever make me feel better. but i am glad for teh ability to write.
i've had alot of great years and i'm sure some of you had fun reading about them. but lately, i dunno if its growing up, or what, but i have so manyother emotions inside me that i can't really express or don't want to.
for those who know exactly about the vince situation, I'm so confused.. what the hell did i get myself into? there is so much that happened after that night, more specifically, the following morning, that i don't even wnat to tell myself. but for some reason, and no it's not cuz i love him, i'm not upset they happened. i love him alot just not in the way everyone seems to think so.
for those who know about the steph situation. you know more that me probably. something happened but the lack of communication on both parts screwed us over. I've heard things and witnessed so many other things i dunno whats reality and whats not. something has changed. but i still lover her and hope she gets someone to help , cuz i'm not doing a good job anymore.
for those who know about march 2003, god bless you for still being my friend today. that was the lowest point in my life and i'm ashamed of it, but it did make me stonger. and makes me who i am today. someone who isnt afraid to live life and to make drunken mistakes. no matter how incriminating they will be on monday. lol. i'm happy to live and i'm happy that i have people in my life who stick with me and no matter how drunk or how retarded or how i sound really gay when i laugh. most of all i'm glad i have friends.
I'm sorry. but sometimes i need to let go of something that i love to grow stronger. and i think maybe this time i'm not gonna regret doing it.
just i need to pick what thing i'm going to let you.
if you have a need to know whats going on with me, im me.
rainbowbright745@aol.com
or if i have some earth shattering news i'll be back.
don't cry lol
thanks to everyonee