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Leslie burned me the Graham Colton Band Cd. C'est fabtabulous! I love the song "First Week." it's about wanting the feelings of the first week in a relationship, like the feeling of butterflies in your stomach, to last through the entire relationship. speaking of relationships, i talked to ryan and chris on tuesday. and that's all im gonna say because i'm making this entry public. if im in the mood to procrasinate, i might write more about that in a friends only entry. : P
anyhu, today was the last of classes. i am sad. i don't want to grow up. i hate time, but you guys already know that. i want to be 17 again and relive senior year. i want my hs buds, but i want my college friends too. I want my beach...
If you could go back to any time in your life, what would you want to redo? i can't really pinpoint a specific date, but i think i would want to relive 10th grade and keep going from there. I just hate any kind of change. I adjust well once i'm in a different situation but i just hate saying goodbye to chapters in my life. i'm not ready to end freshmen year. i don't want to be a sophmore because everything will just keep getting faster and sooner than i know it i will have to make critical life decisions, like what will i choose for a profession? where will i live? etc. i hate it. :(
picking a major is already super difficult. i'm already on the history/gov track but i really want to do international relations. but i feel i already set myself up for a history/gov major, so it will take more time to switch now. like, ive finished all the requirements for history/gov but none for international relations. if i switch paths i might have to graduate later. i don't know. and i'm not a huge economics fan and there are mucho econ requirements for international studies. ahhhHHHHH!! *deep breathe* having a french minor is a no brainer but won't it make more sense to be an international studies major with a french minor instead of hist/gov major and french minor? je ne sais pas. i want to go to graduate school so i could always study international relations/his/gov then. que sera sera.
i talked to my mom last night about backpacking europe. basically, i can't do it. I was crying A LOT. she wouldn't even hear me out. i dont see the problem if i pay for it? ahhHHHH! If i only live once, then i want to live it to the fullest. my parents are NOT letting me live. :(
now i'm on plan B, which is summer abroad next year, fall semester washington D.C., spring semester France, again. i am going to go trigger travel happy junior year :D ryan and i are going to write to travel channel for a show idea. see, he invited me to visit him in phili and since he hasn't really seen much of the city we were thinking of doing a crazy fast tour, kinda like the grocery shopping show, where the contestants have to find store products as fast as possible. we would do that, without the shopping cart, in phili. lol. it would be great! i'm gonna be doign that in europe. im already mapping things out.
oh! i gtg, dinner with my muhl family. :)
anyhu, today was the last of classes. i am sad. i don't want to grow up. i hate time, but you guys already know that. i want to be 17 again and relive senior year. i want my hs buds, but i want my college friends too. I want my beach...
If you could go back to any time in your life, what would you want to redo? i can't really pinpoint a specific date, but i think i would want to relive 10th grade and keep going from there. I just hate any kind of change. I adjust well once i'm in a different situation but i just hate saying goodbye to chapters in my life. i'm not ready to end freshmen year. i don't want to be a sophmore because everything will just keep getting faster and sooner than i know it i will have to make critical life decisions, like what will i choose for a profession? where will i live? etc. i hate it. :(
picking a major is already super difficult. i'm already on the history/gov track but i really want to do international relations. but i feel i already set myself up for a history/gov major, so it will take more time to switch now. like, ive finished all the requirements for history/gov but none for international relations. if i switch paths i might have to graduate later. i don't know. and i'm not a huge economics fan and there are mucho econ requirements for international studies. ahhhHHHHH!! *deep breathe* having a french minor is a no brainer but won't it make more sense to be an international studies major with a french minor instead of hist/gov major and french minor? je ne sais pas. i want to go to graduate school so i could always study international relations/his/gov then. que sera sera.
i talked to my mom last night about backpacking europe. basically, i can't do it. I was crying A LOT. she wouldn't even hear me out. i dont see the problem if i pay for it? ahhHHHH! If i only live once, then i want to live it to the fullest. my parents are NOT letting me live. :(
now i'm on plan B, which is summer abroad next year, fall semester washington D.C., spring semester France, again. i am going to go trigger travel happy junior year :D ryan and i are going to write to travel channel for a show idea. see, he invited me to visit him in phili and since he hasn't really seen much of the city we were thinking of doing a crazy fast tour, kinda like the grocery shopping show, where the contestants have to find store products as fast as possible. we would do that, without the shopping cart, in phili. lol. it would be great! i'm gonna be doign that in europe. im already mapping things out.
oh! i gtg, dinner with my muhl family. :)