Hmph
Dear (Your Name Here),
I feel sleepy a lot of the time lately. It's unnerving. And it's aggravating too. Getting up and doing something fun sometimes feels like a chore. How can I stay motivated with that feeling?
Time gives my head the spins. More and more as it passes by. It's just difficult and scary to think about at times. And when I do, as I did now, I'll occasionally space out and then feel extremely detached from my surroundings in the most basic and most complex of ways. Then I feel like I have to recalibrate my brain or my psyche to feel comfortable again. Some days I can't. And I have to got to sleep knowing that I could quite possibly wake up feeling that way still. I feel like things should feel the most normal when you wake up, so when I feel abnormal upon awakening, I'll feel like my world has lost its foundation. I'll feel like I don't understand what life is like anymore or that all my memory before that point has been a sham.
People tell me to just stop focusing on these thoughts. Why does my mind keep wandering to them? Is it a problem or habitual?
Sometimes I worry that my brain is broken. Forever. It's extremely frightening.
-Doug
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