Aug 07, 2008 14:27
im doing a pretty horrible job at getting a new job. Im really being picky because im tired of being at a job where I feel like im bending over everyday.
I have a paper route, but they treat their employees horribly too. Maybe im just too picky, but i believe in worker's rights. I need to join a union probably... shoot.
Im just scraping by right now. I make less than what i need to spend every paycheck, so im just going broke slower. It could be worse because I dont have very many bills.
They worse part of not having a job is that I feel completely incompetent. Im depressed about not having a job, so its harder to go above and beyond to get a job. Im feeling a lack of confidence. Adding to this is the fact that I want to take some classes this semester but Im not sure what job I could get that could work around my schedule.
I quit my job quite a while ago and the time is just flying by. I only work about four and a half hours everyday, but it feels like I barely have time to wake up before I go to sleep again. Im usually up at 2 A.M. and asleep by 6 or 7 P.M.
I was devoting a lot of time to my bus in the beginning of my "vacation" but now that I am very broke, and have yet to find a job, I have lost most motivation to work on it. I know that once I get a job and start school, ill have less time to work on it,but I still cant find the time to go over there.
I have applied to quite a few places and done 3 interviews, but have no call-backs. Ive been trying to work at the hospital in Central-Supply or Transporting. No word yet. I just want a job that will give me respect. I dont want some piece of shit,uneducated,hypocritical,bi-polar,rascist, drama-obsessed,self righteous manager who feels like he can do whatever he wants.
I think im just traumatized by such a horrible working experience. Im not some complete wuss. Im not afraid of working for someone that is rough around the edges. I'll get my hands dirty. Anyone who knows me knows thats what I prefer. I dont want a job where I CANT get my hands dirty. I hate white collar a**holes like my old boss who wash their hands fifteen times a day. Guys who wear slacks and polished shoes. You know... the guys who tuck their shirt in, even on weekends But I do want to work for a guy that respects his workers. Who doesnt look for ways to constantly screw over their employees.
I need some more confidence and some more motivation to get back out there..although im not really willing to over-compromise.
Im turning 21 pretty soon. Im the youngest out of almost all my friends. I think im going to go to the poker room soon after. Thats about all im looking forward to.