Wake me up when september ends

[cooldude6516]

I woke up with no energy, idk how to explain it, it happens sometimes. i slept plenty too. ah well. I just chilled in my room, added music stuff to that video me court and tonya made the other day, its the best. i made myself some spaghetti then later i downed some black raspberry ice cream. yumm. ive been waiting forever for court to be done with her stuff, so finally went over along with cheriii. court shared some of her favorite things from her bible and one mentioning about not hold grudges bc its bad for urself or something. so then rose was brought up, talking about how maybe i should just message her and say sorry for what i done. is this something i really need to do? seems like the right thing to do, court did it with all of her men. rose even did it to me. but idk if its safe to be alright with her again. im with sam and i dont want rose messing with my mind. i prob will just move on from that. court and cheri wanted to go out and spendddd money for dinner, ughh. and then we all bitched about whoseee driving. i just didnt wanna go out to eat and they r traping me to go spend money. tonya and troy came over and troy drove us all to chinese buffet where i spent 13 dollars, mehhh. then monday im about to spend like over 20 bucks for tonya at olive garden , i need a job, i need mo money. tonya put a crayfish thing in my drink and i didnt kno, and i took a sip and everyone is laughing, so i spit out my drink and then notice that damn thing is in my drink. oh welllll. nick texted me saying his show went great and record company ppl came up and talked to them. i wish i gone and saw him, i really should go to one of his shows, it would be the nice thing of me, so next time i really should go. me and him never talk anymore, he doesnt tell me the good info anymore. my ma called my from my uncles house shitfaced. if shes over there, then shes most likely drinking vodka bc thats all my uncle drinks. Sam is over her friends house getting shitty, who knows who else might be there or whats going on. she wont text me back. later we went to friendlys where they werent toooo friendly bc they wouldnt take there order. then cheri kept pressing the button lmaooo and the black woman was getting mad, WHOS doing that?! lmao. then back to griswold and home i went. i played super mario 3, but then it was pissing me off and here i am now typing my life away. its only 1030 and im home, seems early for me for a saturday night. ah well. maybe i should do some school work. i have this big spanish project coming up and im nervous about it, ill probably do it all wrong and just fail college and blahhhh. i feel bored now. i dont know what to do. probably wont go to bed for awhile. i do miss amber and emac. the times im on adventures with everyone, i want them to be included. this feels like a night where i just need to party and have fun, i need it. or just wishing i could get in my car and just drive and drive to somewhere great and relax. i would only if gas was way much cheaper.

i found my get away private island



the ocean and sunset, the perfect place. thats where i would love to be at this moment.