2 30 in the mourning
well its another sleepless night for me, so far it looks to be that way, despite i find my eyes half open right now. but when i lay in my bed i feel a wave of insecurities flow through me and i have a vision of dying in my head, then my eyes open and won't shut again. this is the routine i had last sunday night too, something about sundays i guess. well in my last entry i ranted about fighting or something unimportant, so i'll make this one matter. i had an amazing conversation today with gabrielle. it went from sayin the generic "Hi hows it goin" to something so honest and pure that i loved every second of the convo that lasted from 210 to like 440 in the afternoon. it was about past lives, to soul mates,procrastanating to an online past life finder outter, i was a chick horsman in south japan, wierd huh? anyway it went to writing a book, to dressin scandelous lol getting dressed up to sit around, what is virginia beach? i still don't know all i know is its like no other place in the world,then skate and surf, which i want to go, so i might take her up on the offer to go with her and her friends which would be cool, and jazz club singing and kid who listens outside the door, to a possiable kareoke night sometime to watching cabaret and doing broadway musicals, and dancing and something i admitted that most prolly don't know and its better that way, and sexified blond hair with possiable bangs, and me being "too freakin cute" then it was like dinner time for the both of us.
so that was a great time today sitting around the dorm on a rainy sunday chatting it up with her, it was the best rainy sunday ever.
well that made the clock tick to 3 am and still no sleepy feelings yet, i was supposed to go running at 6 in the morining with Gab, only she was gonna do it in NY and i was gonna do it in Boston but i think i'll scream till i faint, i'll still try to get outta bed and jog. although it will be off of maybe 3 hours of sleep and thats if i fall asleep when i hit the bed which it doesn't look to promising right now, well anyway maybe i'll put on "Donnie Darko" thats always fun to watch this early in the morning.
well until the next time....
"Sail with me into the setting sun, the battle has been won, but war has just begun, and as we row emotion starts to die, we need to find a way, just to keep our desires alive"