Just a drop in the ocean
Wow..it's been a while. School just started and so far it's been good. I have one very good looking professor that I am pretty sure I am borderline obsessed with. He dresses well, he's nice, smart...not my type? Anyways looking is always nice. I'm not gonna lie he's been my motivation though to do well in that class, I mean I can't look dumb in front of that gorgeous man.
Anyways so I just had the weirdest thing happen to me... The other day I was cleaning some stuff and I came across one of my old journals and began to read a random page and in that entry I read about some people from high school, one guy in particular we will call him Louie. Well after reading that part about Louie I began thinking about him a lot and last night I tried snooping on his Facebook page but there isn't a lot you can see bc it's private. So I went to bed last night and dreamt about him and today I get a message from him!! I guess it's true what they say, your thoughts attract things that you want.
I was recently introduced to the movie "The Secret" and it was all about that. Your thoughts control what you want in life and they are a big magnet. Whatever you put out there is what you're going to get in return but you have to really want it. When I watched it the concept really makes sense. If you want something and constantly think about it and put positive vibes out there it will come to you.
The only scary thing is that I know I wanted to talk to Louie deep down but at the same time I don't want to open that can of worms after everything we have been through and now that we are at very different points in our lives it's pointless but at the same time I'm extremely curious. I can't help but feel in a funk, this weekend will be good to clear my head bc I will have that chance to think..clearly hopefully.
Lately I have also been in a I want to be left alone/ I need a new scene. I know I get these moments a lot but I think the closer to freedom I am the stronger the feelings. I just have to make the best of what I have now. Which reminds me! Lately everyone has been telling me to live a little...wtf?! I live my life the way I want it to be lived, I can enjoy everything else when that time comes, if it doesn't come oh well. I am just so tired of people lately. That's why I like this time of year bc I'm too busy for most things and don't have to deal with it.
Anyways I think that's enough ranting. I hope the next time it will be on a more positive note.
Goodnight
Xoxo
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