but right now.... I wish I was older.
I'm still numb and sleep is restless. My stress is entering my dreams more and more. I don't like that. Sleep is comforting and I don't want that to be messed up for me.
Uncertainty scares me. It is scary to question the things that you do live for when you don't live for much.
I think that I am crazy. I don't think that it is normal to have the thoughts that I have daily. Or the feelings. I'm on the edge waiting to be pushed. Waiting for something to push me. I'm ready for it this time.
Another day, another thought, another cry, another breakdown, another stress, another lie, another emotion..... another fucking day to keep walking and to keep living. Yup, just like yesterday.
Uncertainty scares me. It is scary to question the things that you do live for when you don't live for much.
I think that I am crazy. I don't think that it is normal to have the thoughts that I have daily. Or the feelings. I'm on the edge waiting to be pushed. Waiting for something to push me. I'm ready for it this time.
Another day, another thought, another cry, another breakdown, another stress, another lie, another emotion..... another fucking day to keep walking and to keep living. Yup, just like yesterday.