Battle Scars (3/3)

[coolbreeze1]

Here you go! The final part...

Comments

[kriadydragon]

Dang, that was heart breaking. Poor John having been put in that position. You do know how to put John in some nasty, dark situations. Very wonderfully done :D

And thought this is probably heartless of me to say, I really wished someone had knocked that little creep Hesh on his butt (actually I kind of wish someone had shot him) but considering how violent he was I wouldn't be surprised if someone took him down.

[coolbreeze1]

This was definitely not a happy, all is well in the end kind of story. Sheppard will work through his emotions and his experiences here eventually, but I didn't want to tie it up in a neat little bow either. I wanted to show it was a difficult situation that will take time to get over.

Hesh was angry and violent, but I saw him more as a product of circumstances beyond his control. He was not nice, but in a more peaceful upbringing, maybe he could have been. Still, I imagine given the violence he's involved in that he would eventually come to a violent end himself, and probably at a relatively young age. Thanks for reading!

[sherry57]

Poor John. It's hard enough to lose soldiers under his command but here, to be put in the position of a doctor and be expected to save a very sick boy....an impossible task for him and even as Carson says, would have been impossible for him as well. But knowing how much Sheppard carries the guilt for every death on his watch, this will be another one to notch up.
Poor John...in this story, the emotional whump was really bad. I'm sure he'd chose physical whump any day over what he went through in this.
Really well written...angsty, dark....I was holding my breath just wanting Tayven to survive for Sheppard. And Hesh....boy, what a bad bit of stuff. What a character you put together in him!
Thanks for this hon...especially so soon after your last long story!! You're spoiling us!

[coolbreeze1]

This turned out to be pretty dark and emotionally whumpy for John - much more so than I anticipated when I started it a year ago. At first, I thought it would be fun to throw him into a totally different role than he's used to, and put him completely out of his depth, but then I saw there were serious consequences to that experience that anyone would have a hard time getting over.

I enjoyed writing Hesh and letting him go to violent extremes. I did feel kind of bad for him, though. Had he not grown up in a civil war and kill-or-be-killed circumstances, maybe he would have grown up to be a very different person. Thanks for reading and commenting!! I always enjoy hearing from you!

[dernhelm62]

Aww, poor John. What a hidden treasure you found! You really dug deep down into the layers of John Sheppard. I especially loved the scene between John and Carson, if anyone could empathize, it would be Carson (God bless him). My lower lip wobbled. It was still action with hurt for John, both physical and emotional. *sniff* Thank you coolbreeze!

[coolbreeze1]

Thank you!! I don't think I realized how dark this was going to get when I started (and maybe that's why I stopped writing it the first time), but Carson really came in at the end as the light at the end of the tunnel. It will take time but John will get through this, in large part because Carson is there to empathize and help him through it. I just love Carson!! Thank you for reading and commenting! :)

[linzi5]

Heartbreakingly beautiful. A wonderfully crafted and emotive story, sensitively and thoughtfully written. Excellent reading. Thanks so much for sharing! :)

[coolbreeze1]

Thank you!

[toomuchfandom]

*sniffs*

Amazing.

Well done!

[coolbreeze1]

Thanks!