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FUCK FUCK FUCK!!! its one o clock in the morning. stupidest thing: went to go get a mocha blended coffee thing at college restaurant!! result: can't sleep! dreaming? am i awake? can't tell... must write to get sleepy. sleep is my reality. maybe. who knows. only me. maybe when i die. 1am. i have to wake up at 7:30. timed writing, later today in a writing and composition class. that's at 11am later today. wish i was sleeping now. fact i learned. ok, well i heard it. but it's food for thought: albert einstein used about 2 percent of his brain (*pleez correct me if i'm WRONG). average human usage: less than 2 percent. question: please answer if you wish. what if you had 100 percent brain capacity? assuming you could manipulate molecules and the laws of physics and fly, and do telekinesis? i've answered that i'd throw all those loser conservative republicans (and i'd know who they are cuz i can do telekinesis) into the sun for their idiotic and tunnel-like views and ways. among other things. i'd create a "what if crystal ball." what if i like this person? what would happen? yess... this would prolly cripple the laws of time and seeing the future... but i'd know how to correct it cuz i'd have 100 percent brain capacity. ok... maybe there's a chance i'd want to die soon after, cuz i'd realize all the bad things in the world.... OR MAYBE??? i would fix all those problems... like the cartoon of superman. ok, this is what i was originally going to write:
crash course on existentialism (a philosophical view - loosely - that evaluates existence and the execution of daily tasks/beliefs in one's life), or at least what i learned at San Fernando High School, San Fernando, California:
*oh and disclaimer. this is what I think and have learned... so if you think otherwise, kudos. lol. but i'd like to hear what you think i'm doing wrong. after all, knowing the opposing side like the back of my hand is helpful when destroying that very opposition.
Existentialism constitutes 5 tenets (or Laws):
1. SUBJECTIVITY: be selfish. if you think red is really white, then so be it. be subjective. you are right, not George Bush or Michael Jackson. Or if you happen to agree with those people, then so be it.
2. DREAD AND ANXIETY: no fear. you can't have fear. you just can't. why fear something you don't know about? (aristotle i think said that too, u know, cuz i was talking to him one day, and he was like... wow. i should use that. lol) case and point: death. you haven't died yet (or maybe you have; if you have died, disregard this. lol) don't get so anxious about things you do. remain calm cuz it really doesn't matter in the end. why spend ur energy on negative things? life is short after all. spend it doing the things you want. not worrying about IRS or bills... unless that is what you WANT to do.
3. INDIVIDUAL MORALITY. kinda self explanatory. you have your own morals. not what Jewish, Catholic, Presbyterian, Buddhist, Taoist, Muslim, Greek Orthodox doctrines say. etc. yess ok, this can get messy if you say that i think killing people is right. well.. not sure how to get out of that. but i think referring to #5 will fix this.
4. PRAGMATISM: be practical. dreams are nice, and fun, and exciting, and overall exhilarating. but cmon... only neo can fly (matrix allusion). ok, well if you have 100 percent brain capacity, you could fly. reasonability and relativity are the key.
5. CHOICE AND COMMITTMENT: if you kill somebody, accept the consequences. if you CHOOSE the red pill or the blue pill, COMMITT to the consequences. doing drugs. driving fast, doing spontaneous things. being in love. walking barefoot. i mean, be prepared to accept n e thing that happens as a result of who you want to be, what you do and what you want in life. you dont' have to do anything. its your life, you're in control.
ok... tell me what i did wrong -if n e thing = cuz i'mm gonna teach the kiddies this during the first 2 weeks of their high school career. feedback is always welcome.
ok, so i tried going to bed before this, but i couldn't. i never thot coffee would do this to me. have you ever had the feeling of just screaming out loud and yelling, WHAT THE HELLL... WHAT am i DOING!?!?!! ok, so i had that. but my roomate is sleeping. sorta reminds me of garden state when natalie portman says, oh man, whenever i feel unoriginal, i stand in another part of the room and do a lil whacky dance. so like natalie, i'm trying to do that. to be spontaneous to break out of society's hold. i didn't say what she said word for word either. i have to watch it again. n e way, when i think about existentialism it kinda sends chills down my spine. OK... not really... it send chills down my professor's spine... the one who teaches cognitive science (artificial intelligence, nature of the mind and knowledge, etc AD NAUSEUM AD INFINITUM). i just got freaked out actually... to think this guy made his whole reality... maybe that's the extreme form of existentialism if there is such a thing? spur of the moment, stream of conciousness type of stuff. i dunno... life changing for me. other movies and novels too. ones that come to mind at this second (being that it is 1:22am):
The Matrix (choice... red pill or blue pill. there's also a chinese proverb or something that goes like this: a man woke up as a butterfly cuz he was dreaming that he was a man... REALITY VS IMAGINATION... what is real? DEATH VS LIFE... inevitability... CHANGE VS PERMANENCE. IGNORANCE is BLISS... Cypher is the name - i think - of the guy who chose to be reinserted into the matrix cuz he wanted the taste of that sirloin steak... i mean, he chose to go back cuz he liked being ignorant. i mean, if i didn't learn about all these things about the movies or novels... i'm not sure i'd be doing this at this moment... mabye if i was ignorant about how california's water supply is gonna go bust in 18 years i wouldn't take 5 minute showers but 50 minutes ones. i could go on forever. must write a paper just on this), Fight Club (nihilism. society. conformity. paradox. MATerialism... what is the point of Gucci necklaces, versacci this, lexus that, blah blah blah... course, i'm a hypocrite and culprit.. i have quicksilver sandals... more themes that are present in the novel are also in this movie), Memento (scary shit. simply. guy lives his life through what he sees. tells himself he has this disorder in the brain >>which is real - haha really - in life... at least according to neuro doctors and psychologists.<<), Donny Darko (time travel. love. society.), Pi (fibonacci sequence. golden ratio. the torah is encoded with a divine number according to some. Da vinci left a code in the last supper. in that painting, the person to the left is a woman. Mary Magdalene (sp.?) his wife. they had a kid. Da Vinci apparently blood related. he was sworn into a secret society along with Newton and Einstein... ok, sidetracking. that davinci code stuff is in that book by that guy (can u tell i haven't read it?) ok, so the pi just makes me think of da vinci's ration. math may be the answer to true knowledge. reminiscent of plato and ho the highest FORM of knowledge is higher than math. that's cuz math nobody questions. 1+1=2. why? just cuz. there is objectivity. could the reason behind what we think, why and how we think be a mathematical model or math itself? numbers. transcendental functions.), Requiem For A Dream (nothing is always peachy. depressing. also directed by the darren aranofsky the guy who did Pi. pi is a number by the way, that is derived by dividing the circumference of a circle by its diameter. i think. lol... C = 2πr A = πr².), Trainspotting (sex drugs rocknroll... life as it pretty much is. not glossy, not sugarcoated), Laws of Attraction (i should read that book sometime. sex drugs rock n roll... same thing), Amistad (really sad... steven spielberg directed it. slave trade. triagle trade. millions of africans died so rich white men could collect money. conspiricies. good will. hope), Monster ( sad stuff. love. defeat. power to live. belief in what's right. subjectivity)
novels: Arthurian Romances- Chretien De Troyes (knights of the round table. lancelot, guinevere, arthur, merlin. chivalry. good will. welfare of society. honor. love... early literature that embodies the hero.) Choke (sex, nihilism. sad stuff.) - Mr. Chuck Palahniuk. Also by him: Fight Club (virtually the same as the film, except for the ending. "you have just had a near-life experience" soap was created when the Mayans sacrificed people on the pyramids cuz of the fat of the remains dribbled down to the river where they washed their clothes.) and Survivor (guy who is on a plane and about to die. open ended novel. posits the idea that humans ALWAYS need answers to the big mystery. and when they don't get it, they grow afraid and FEARfull of the unkown. materialism too. society. conformity.). The Wasteland- T.S. Eliot (society is a wasteland. and more stuff that boggles the most intelligent minds... or maybe not. still boggles my mind) also by him, "The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock" and "The Hollow Men." my most memorable line in addition to ignorance is bliss: "This is the way the world ends, / This is the way the world ends, / This is the way the world ends, / Not with a bang but a whimper." modernism. The scarlett Letter - Nathaniel HAwthorne (society. persecution. double standard. adultery. conformity. existentialism. jealousy.) William Faulkner - As I Lay Dying (words are NEVER enough to describe human emotion or mental representations. LANGUAGE never enough. language is like a glass jar and what we want to say is the bee that is trapped inside. language is paradoxically a barrier. brilliant author who plays with the structure and reliability of the narrators... and reality vs. imagination) Tim O' Brian - The Things They Carried (theme of listening. people hear what they want to hear. poor veterans. they fight a war and come back to people who don't care about them. reliability of the narrator. never take n e thing for granted. it may berry well be completely reverse. war. death. love. courage. hypocrisy.) The Awakening - Kate Chopin (double standard. plight of women of the early 1900s and still today. oppressive society. independence and freedom. what is it really? "i would give all the unessentials for my children. but i would never give up my SELF,my BEING for my children." i'm paraphrasing. realization of a dearth of hope. that equals futility which leads to death.) The Stranger - Albert Camus (primary existential novel. main character doesn't NOT care... he just has a separate belief system. persecution. ignorance. religion. death. futility.) 1984 - George Orwell (irony in that i never finished this book... but what i got from it: SLAVERY IS FREEDOM, WAR IS PEACE and something else. paradox, irony. society vs. individual.) Invisible Man - Ralph Ellison (friend enlightened me and said that it was sort of like Plato's Cave in The Republic. Knowledge. racism. paradox. ignorance. futility. loss of hope. metaphorical death.) Poisonwood Bible - Barbara Kingsolver (culture. subjectivity. didn't finish this novel either. intend to. lol.) currently reading Diary. haven't finished. i'm expecting the same from mr. Palahniuk. wow... 2am. i think maybe i've finished all that i needed to get out. brain hasn't fried yet. farewell.
post script. may have forgotten to put other novels and movies down. other question if wished to answer: WHAT KEEPS YOU GOING EVERYDAY? what motivates you to get up from your sleep (humans spend 1/3 of their lives sleeping) in the morning? the prospect of being in Love? the goal of being happy in your life? answer this and the one at the beginning, or forever rest in peace.
maybe later today: bio of marcus. movies. novels (ooh, just thot of another one: The Yellow Wallpaper. it's a short story by Charlotte Perkins. Post-pardum depression. when a mom rejects loving a baby cuz she no longer gets the attention she had when it was in her womb. the human psyche. subjectivity. reality). suggestions for movies/novels i should watch/read that are somewhat like the ones above? blurp: another novel~ Leo Tolstoy - Anna Karenina (didn't finish novel either. but found within: loss of hope. futility. social chameleons. oppressive society. double standards. death.) DON QUIXOTE!!! Miguel De Cervantes (didnt' finish. but: dream vs. reality. hope. chivalry. society) other short stories that i can't really rember. Ralph Waldo Emerson and Henry David Thoreau = transcendentalism (nature vs. organized "civilized society") "Hills Like White Elephants" by i think Ernest Hemmingway or Fitzgerald. memory fails. it's in 2nd person. i thot that was interesting. 2nd person perspective is when you only have the people speaking. "A Rose for Emily." kinda creepy. "Importance of Being Ernest." funny play. by oscar wilde. speaking of plays: The Crucible by Arthur Miller. (great novel making social commentary on the 1950s, mcCarthyism, red scare, fear. uses the salem witchtrials.) bRILLIANCE!! UTTER BRILLIANCE! haha.. once, a friend actually WROTE udders, but meant UTTERS... HAHAHA... what a funny guy. The Republic by Plato. interesting stuff. earliest writings of thinking about thinking. lol. the cave. forms. math. knowledge. definitely a big thing: knowledge. The Giver - Lewis Lowry (oppressive society. freedom. control. no choice. death. hope)
novels i read but didn't quite like as much: My Antonia - Willa Cather, Winnesburg, Ohio - ???, The Sun Also Rises - Ernest Hemmingway, The Great Gatsby - F.Scott Fitzgerald (guilded america. apparently, greatest novel ever written; beg to differ. 1920s), Catcher in the Rye - J.D. Salinger. The Grapes of Wrath - tip of my tongue... forgot author. Tortilla Flat = by the same guy. JOHn steinbeck. that's his name. i am crossing fingers that i dont' have to read Dickens or DWG (dead white guys, like melville etc.) Shakespeare stuff... maybe that will change. unfortunately, though literature is written art, and is supposed to transcend time periods and eras... i can't get through it. not sure why. maybe just Hamlet (To Be or not to be, that is the question) and R&J. Henry the IV too... (moral ambiguity is dangerous cuz a person could be duplicitous) Odyssey by Homer. ok ok, some of the above mentioned novels i didn't finish. so i guess that's unfair... but... but but... if i can't get through 20 or 50 pages... cmon... there must be something wrong. Aldus Huxley - Brave New World. Adventures of Huckleberry Finn - Mark Twain/Samuel Clemens.
novels right now that i should read but unsure if i will: sound and the fury, bluest eye, color purple, one flew over the cuckoo's nest. tony morrison stuff. modern best sellers (well i've read all 5 harry potter books. nice to let my imagination pretend that maybe one day, i will be a wizard with magical powers, and a wand) 2:23am. time for nappy time. farewell. again.
crash course on existentialism (a philosophical view - loosely - that evaluates existence and the execution of daily tasks/beliefs in one's life), or at least what i learned at San Fernando High School, San Fernando, California:
*oh and disclaimer. this is what I think and have learned... so if you think otherwise, kudos. lol. but i'd like to hear what you think i'm doing wrong. after all, knowing the opposing side like the back of my hand is helpful when destroying that very opposition.
Existentialism constitutes 5 tenets (or Laws):
1. SUBJECTIVITY: be selfish. if you think red is really white, then so be it. be subjective. you are right, not George Bush or Michael Jackson. Or if you happen to agree with those people, then so be it.
2. DREAD AND ANXIETY: no fear. you can't have fear. you just can't. why fear something you don't know about? (aristotle i think said that too, u know, cuz i was talking to him one day, and he was like... wow. i should use that. lol) case and point: death. you haven't died yet (or maybe you have; if you have died, disregard this. lol) don't get so anxious about things you do. remain calm cuz it really doesn't matter in the end. why spend ur energy on negative things? life is short after all. spend it doing the things you want. not worrying about IRS or bills... unless that is what you WANT to do.
3. INDIVIDUAL MORALITY. kinda self explanatory. you have your own morals. not what Jewish, Catholic, Presbyterian, Buddhist, Taoist, Muslim, Greek Orthodox doctrines say. etc. yess ok, this can get messy if you say that i think killing people is right. well.. not sure how to get out of that. but i think referring to #5 will fix this.
4. PRAGMATISM: be practical. dreams are nice, and fun, and exciting, and overall exhilarating. but cmon... only neo can fly (matrix allusion). ok, well if you have 100 percent brain capacity, you could fly. reasonability and relativity are the key.
5. CHOICE AND COMMITTMENT: if you kill somebody, accept the consequences. if you CHOOSE the red pill or the blue pill, COMMITT to the consequences. doing drugs. driving fast, doing spontaneous things. being in love. walking barefoot. i mean, be prepared to accept n e thing that happens as a result of who you want to be, what you do and what you want in life. you dont' have to do anything. its your life, you're in control.
ok... tell me what i did wrong -if n e thing = cuz i'mm gonna teach the kiddies this during the first 2 weeks of their high school career. feedback is always welcome.
ok, so i tried going to bed before this, but i couldn't. i never thot coffee would do this to me. have you ever had the feeling of just screaming out loud and yelling, WHAT THE HELLL... WHAT am i DOING!?!?!! ok, so i had that. but my roomate is sleeping. sorta reminds me of garden state when natalie portman says, oh man, whenever i feel unoriginal, i stand in another part of the room and do a lil whacky dance. so like natalie, i'm trying to do that. to be spontaneous to break out of society's hold. i didn't say what she said word for word either. i have to watch it again. n e way, when i think about existentialism it kinda sends chills down my spine. OK... not really... it send chills down my professor's spine... the one who teaches cognitive science (artificial intelligence, nature of the mind and knowledge, etc AD NAUSEUM AD INFINITUM). i just got freaked out actually... to think this guy made his whole reality... maybe that's the extreme form of existentialism if there is such a thing? spur of the moment, stream of conciousness type of stuff. i dunno... life changing for me. other movies and novels too. ones that come to mind at this second (being that it is 1:22am):
The Matrix (choice... red pill or blue pill. there's also a chinese proverb or something that goes like this: a man woke up as a butterfly cuz he was dreaming that he was a man... REALITY VS IMAGINATION... what is real? DEATH VS LIFE... inevitability... CHANGE VS PERMANENCE. IGNORANCE is BLISS... Cypher is the name - i think - of the guy who chose to be reinserted into the matrix cuz he wanted the taste of that sirloin steak... i mean, he chose to go back cuz he liked being ignorant. i mean, if i didn't learn about all these things about the movies or novels... i'm not sure i'd be doing this at this moment... mabye if i was ignorant about how california's water supply is gonna go bust in 18 years i wouldn't take 5 minute showers but 50 minutes ones. i could go on forever. must write a paper just on this), Fight Club (nihilism. society. conformity. paradox. MATerialism... what is the point of Gucci necklaces, versacci this, lexus that, blah blah blah... course, i'm a hypocrite and culprit.. i have quicksilver sandals... more themes that are present in the novel are also in this movie), Memento (scary shit. simply. guy lives his life through what he sees. tells himself he has this disorder in the brain >>which is real - haha really - in life... at least according to neuro doctors and psychologists.<<), Donny Darko (time travel. love. society.), Pi (fibonacci sequence. golden ratio. the torah is encoded with a divine number according to some. Da vinci left a code in the last supper. in that painting, the person to the left is a woman. Mary Magdalene (sp.?) his wife. they had a kid. Da Vinci apparently blood related. he was sworn into a secret society along with Newton and Einstein... ok, sidetracking. that davinci code stuff is in that book by that guy (can u tell i haven't read it?) ok, so the pi just makes me think of da vinci's ration. math may be the answer to true knowledge. reminiscent of plato and ho the highest FORM of knowledge is higher than math. that's cuz math nobody questions. 1+1=2. why? just cuz. there is objectivity. could the reason behind what we think, why and how we think be a mathematical model or math itself? numbers. transcendental functions.), Requiem For A Dream (nothing is always peachy. depressing. also directed by the darren aranofsky the guy who did Pi. pi is a number by the way, that is derived by dividing the circumference of a circle by its diameter. i think. lol... C = 2πr A = πr².), Trainspotting (sex drugs rocknroll... life as it pretty much is. not glossy, not sugarcoated), Laws of Attraction (i should read that book sometime. sex drugs rock n roll... same thing), Amistad (really sad... steven spielberg directed it. slave trade. triagle trade. millions of africans died so rich white men could collect money. conspiricies. good will. hope), Monster ( sad stuff. love. defeat. power to live. belief in what's right. subjectivity)
novels: Arthurian Romances- Chretien De Troyes (knights of the round table. lancelot, guinevere, arthur, merlin. chivalry. good will. welfare of society. honor. love... early literature that embodies the hero.) Choke (sex, nihilism. sad stuff.) - Mr. Chuck Palahniuk. Also by him: Fight Club (virtually the same as the film, except for the ending. "you have just had a near-life experience" soap was created when the Mayans sacrificed people on the pyramids cuz of the fat of the remains dribbled down to the river where they washed their clothes.) and Survivor (guy who is on a plane and about to die. open ended novel. posits the idea that humans ALWAYS need answers to the big mystery. and when they don't get it, they grow afraid and FEARfull of the unkown. materialism too. society. conformity.). The Wasteland- T.S. Eliot (society is a wasteland. and more stuff that boggles the most intelligent minds... or maybe not. still boggles my mind) also by him, "The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock" and "The Hollow Men." my most memorable line in addition to ignorance is bliss: "This is the way the world ends, / This is the way the world ends, / This is the way the world ends, / Not with a bang but a whimper." modernism. The scarlett Letter - Nathaniel HAwthorne (society. persecution. double standard. adultery. conformity. existentialism. jealousy.) William Faulkner - As I Lay Dying (words are NEVER enough to describe human emotion or mental representations. LANGUAGE never enough. language is like a glass jar and what we want to say is the bee that is trapped inside. language is paradoxically a barrier. brilliant author who plays with the structure and reliability of the narrators... and reality vs. imagination) Tim O' Brian - The Things They Carried (theme of listening. people hear what they want to hear. poor veterans. they fight a war and come back to people who don't care about them. reliability of the narrator. never take n e thing for granted. it may berry well be completely reverse. war. death. love. courage. hypocrisy.) The Awakening - Kate Chopin (double standard. plight of women of the early 1900s and still today. oppressive society. independence and freedom. what is it really? "i would give all the unessentials for my children. but i would never give up my SELF,my BEING for my children." i'm paraphrasing. realization of a dearth of hope. that equals futility which leads to death.) The Stranger - Albert Camus (primary existential novel. main character doesn't NOT care... he just has a separate belief system. persecution. ignorance. religion. death. futility.) 1984 - George Orwell (irony in that i never finished this book... but what i got from it: SLAVERY IS FREEDOM, WAR IS PEACE and something else. paradox, irony. society vs. individual.) Invisible Man - Ralph Ellison (friend enlightened me and said that it was sort of like Plato's Cave in The Republic. Knowledge. racism. paradox. ignorance. futility. loss of hope. metaphorical death.) Poisonwood Bible - Barbara Kingsolver (culture. subjectivity. didn't finish this novel either. intend to. lol.) currently reading Diary. haven't finished. i'm expecting the same from mr. Palahniuk. wow... 2am. i think maybe i've finished all that i needed to get out. brain hasn't fried yet. farewell.
post script. may have forgotten to put other novels and movies down. other question if wished to answer: WHAT KEEPS YOU GOING EVERYDAY? what motivates you to get up from your sleep (humans spend 1/3 of their lives sleeping) in the morning? the prospect of being in Love? the goal of being happy in your life? answer this and the one at the beginning, or forever rest in peace.
maybe later today: bio of marcus. movies. novels (ooh, just thot of another one: The Yellow Wallpaper. it's a short story by Charlotte Perkins. Post-pardum depression. when a mom rejects loving a baby cuz she no longer gets the attention she had when it was in her womb. the human psyche. subjectivity. reality). suggestions for movies/novels i should watch/read that are somewhat like the ones above? blurp: another novel~ Leo Tolstoy - Anna Karenina (didn't finish novel either. but found within: loss of hope. futility. social chameleons. oppressive society. double standards. death.) DON QUIXOTE!!! Miguel De Cervantes (didnt' finish. but: dream vs. reality. hope. chivalry. society) other short stories that i can't really rember. Ralph Waldo Emerson and Henry David Thoreau = transcendentalism (nature vs. organized "civilized society") "Hills Like White Elephants" by i think Ernest Hemmingway or Fitzgerald. memory fails. it's in 2nd person. i thot that was interesting. 2nd person perspective is when you only have the people speaking. "A Rose for Emily." kinda creepy. "Importance of Being Ernest." funny play. by oscar wilde. speaking of plays: The Crucible by Arthur Miller. (great novel making social commentary on the 1950s, mcCarthyism, red scare, fear. uses the salem witchtrials.) bRILLIANCE!! UTTER BRILLIANCE! haha.. once, a friend actually WROTE udders, but meant UTTERS... HAHAHA... what a funny guy. The Republic by Plato. interesting stuff. earliest writings of thinking about thinking. lol. the cave. forms. math. knowledge. definitely a big thing: knowledge. The Giver - Lewis Lowry (oppressive society. freedom. control. no choice. death. hope)
novels i read but didn't quite like as much: My Antonia - Willa Cather, Winnesburg, Ohio - ???, The Sun Also Rises - Ernest Hemmingway, The Great Gatsby - F.Scott Fitzgerald (guilded america. apparently, greatest novel ever written; beg to differ. 1920s), Catcher in the Rye - J.D. Salinger. The Grapes of Wrath - tip of my tongue... forgot author. Tortilla Flat = by the same guy. JOHn steinbeck. that's his name. i am crossing fingers that i dont' have to read Dickens or DWG (dead white guys, like melville etc.) Shakespeare stuff... maybe that will change. unfortunately, though literature is written art, and is supposed to transcend time periods and eras... i can't get through it. not sure why. maybe just Hamlet (To Be or not to be, that is the question) and R&J. Henry the IV too... (moral ambiguity is dangerous cuz a person could be duplicitous) Odyssey by Homer. ok ok, some of the above mentioned novels i didn't finish. so i guess that's unfair... but... but but... if i can't get through 20 or 50 pages... cmon... there must be something wrong. Aldus Huxley - Brave New World. Adventures of Huckleberry Finn - Mark Twain/Samuel Clemens.
novels right now that i should read but unsure if i will: sound and the fury, bluest eye, color purple, one flew over the cuckoo's nest. tony morrison stuff. modern best sellers (well i've read all 5 harry potter books. nice to let my imagination pretend that maybe one day, i will be a wizard with magical powers, and a wand) 2:23am. time for nappy time. farewell. again.