Wow, it's nice out...
So the weather is amazingly and phenomenally GORGEOUS outside. It's been like 60 for the past few days, and I love it. It's definitely good weather to get out and do stuff...
I wish people liked me... Recently, I suppose, I have this not so odd (or unfounded?) feeling that people don't like me. It just seems that people don't like me. I don't know why. I could guess why, but I don't know for sure. Here are a few ideas (confirm if true please... you won't hurt my feelings, be honest): I can be annoying, "obsessive", boring and lame. If this is true, I know. They're my character traits. They make up who I am. Sure I talk all the time, even when no one's listening. I know I do this, but does that mean I have to change? I don't know. If you have a problem with me, I'd rather not change, but if you want me to, all you have to do is ask. Why anyone would want to change me, I do not know? HA HA, I jest. Anyway, if you have a beef with me, just let me know about it. I'm an open person, and I readily accept criticism and observations of me.
I don't really like girls anymore or at least none of them "like" me. People say "Relationships just 'happen'". If I find a relationship, I want it that way, but as of yet, nothing's "happening". I just wish things would start "happening". No matter how hard I try to make things "happen", they never do. I've tried to stop trying. It worked for a while, but I'm still lonely. I'm still "incomplete". I still feel as though there could be more to my life right now and still nothing gets done about it. I don't want to have to initiate things. I'll admit that upfront. I'm a non-confrontational person. I'm indecisive, and I'm not the most attractive fellow on the block. Whatever. Maybe I should just admit I'm gay and be done with it... or not. I will give myself the label of being the gay-est straight guy you'll ever meet, but I'm definitely not gay!
Rhetoric is stupid. I hate writing my paper for that class. It's a topic I like, but with all the stuff that the teacher wants me to do, it becomes harder and harder to do what she wants. For instance, I was supposed to have an expert interview done for sharing information about tomorrow. I really wanted to interview the principal at a local elementary school, but I found out about the school late two weeks ago, and then I e-mailed him, however, the area schools were on spring break last week. Ergo, no one was there and no one responded. My teacher, on Tuesday when I have class until 4, that I needed to call the school instead of e-mailing them again. Well, on Wednesdays I have class until 5, and obviously schools close at around 4-ish, so I obviously couldn't call them. So, now I have a presentation of my interview data tomorrow and I don't have any. Now my rhetoric teacher is going to hate me more than she does now. I'm not quite sure she understands how taking 6 classes works out. I definitely have class until late afternoon and schools close like at 4. If I'm in class until 5, it just doesn't work. Whatever. She can just hate me then. See if I care. I can't drop the class now... OY!!!
I'm pretty sure that's all I need to get out... If I forgot anything, let me know... and if you have any comments, you know where to leave them... Hope you enjoyed the read... Peace out...
I wish people liked me... Recently, I suppose, I have this not so odd (or unfounded?) feeling that people don't like me. It just seems that people don't like me. I don't know why. I could guess why, but I don't know for sure. Here are a few ideas (confirm if true please... you won't hurt my feelings, be honest): I can be annoying, "obsessive", boring and lame. If this is true, I know. They're my character traits. They make up who I am. Sure I talk all the time, even when no one's listening. I know I do this, but does that mean I have to change? I don't know. If you have a problem with me, I'd rather not change, but if you want me to, all you have to do is ask. Why anyone would want to change me, I do not know? HA HA, I jest. Anyway, if you have a beef with me, just let me know about it. I'm an open person, and I readily accept criticism and observations of me.
I don't really like girls anymore or at least none of them "like" me. People say "Relationships just 'happen'". If I find a relationship, I want it that way, but as of yet, nothing's "happening". I just wish things would start "happening". No matter how hard I try to make things "happen", they never do. I've tried to stop trying. It worked for a while, but I'm still lonely. I'm still "incomplete". I still feel as though there could be more to my life right now and still nothing gets done about it. I don't want to have to initiate things. I'll admit that upfront. I'm a non-confrontational person. I'm indecisive, and I'm not the most attractive fellow on the block. Whatever. Maybe I should just admit I'm gay and be done with it... or not. I will give myself the label of being the gay-est straight guy you'll ever meet, but I'm definitely not gay!
Rhetoric is stupid. I hate writing my paper for that class. It's a topic I like, but with all the stuff that the teacher wants me to do, it becomes harder and harder to do what she wants. For instance, I was supposed to have an expert interview done for sharing information about tomorrow. I really wanted to interview the principal at a local elementary school, but I found out about the school late two weeks ago, and then I e-mailed him, however, the area schools were on spring break last week. Ergo, no one was there and no one responded. My teacher, on Tuesday when I have class until 4, that I needed to call the school instead of e-mailing them again. Well, on Wednesdays I have class until 5, and obviously schools close at around 4-ish, so I obviously couldn't call them. So, now I have a presentation of my interview data tomorrow and I don't have any. Now my rhetoric teacher is going to hate me more than she does now. I'm not quite sure she understands how taking 6 classes works out. I definitely have class until late afternoon and schools close like at 4. If I'm in class until 5, it just doesn't work. Whatever. She can just hate me then. See if I care. I can't drop the class now... OY!!!
I'm pretty sure that's all I need to get out... If I forgot anything, let me know... and if you have any comments, you know where to leave them... Hope you enjoyed the read... Peace out...