Boy, do I feel dumb...
Yeah, I feel really really stupid...
Screw unattainable love. It sucks. I found out last night that Swimmer is taken. Has been since like junior year of high school. I feel like such an IDIOT... Why do I always do this to myself??? This isn't the first time I've wanted a girl that was taken. In fact, I do it all the time. It seems that all the girls that I like already have boyfriends. I can sure pick 'em. That's all I have to say. As of right now, I have no prospects for a relationship. I haven't really seen Chicago around, but randomly, out of the blue today, she said "Hi" to me as I was walking by. It was very strange. We still haven't introduced ourselves. That might be a good idea to do sometime. Let's just say it's not number one on my to-do list... I guess there's still Sexy, but I'm not going to initiate anything.
And in other news, we ran the first act of "Mikado" tonight. It wasn't polished or great or anything, but I could definitely see the potential that a lot of things had. I'm really excited for tomorrow (we run act two). It will be interesting, but exciting....
"Why don't I have a girlfriend?" This may be the most pressing question for me right now... it is definitely the most pertinent question in my life right now. I suppose the biggest reasons why I don't have a girlfriend are because I have high (perhaps unattainable) standards, and I'm not willing to settle. But why would I settle? There's no reason to settle until I find the girl I want to spend the rest of my life. I definitely haven't found her yet. I understand that nobody's perfect, and I also understand that people change and are able to be changed. It's not that I even want a girlfriend, I just want a girl that I can hang out with (exclusively? perhaps) and talk with about anything we want to talk about. Sometimes I think that all girls make decisions based on looks (at least about me) and that's profiling and profiling is wrong. I just wish someone were attracted to me for me. If they want me to change, I will gladly do it, but I'm not going to change for someone to like me. I shouldn't have to. Girls should like me for me, no ifs ands or buts.
I don't know. I've been told I'm a nice guy (nice guys finish last... when will I learn this?) and I've been told I'm mature (grounded, settled), and yet those things don't seem to be very attractive for girls at this stage in life. All they want is "adventure" and "memories", which means they go after the guys that they know will make them feel bad in the end and that they know will provide drama for their otherwise dull and unexciting lives. I just don't get it. Girls confuse me. They don't always look at the larger picture. They base many of their choices for relationships on looks only and not on personality, even though they say they like guys with "good personalities", but what a "good personality" as defined by women is I'm still not sure of. I guess as a guy, I know about things that guys do to girls. This weekend I helped one of my friends with a relationship problem (not that I've ever had one), and I think I did a pretty good job. From what I was told, he insulted her and put her down (definitely a sign of a bad relationship) and he wrote/said some things that he shouldn't have that other people saw/heard. As soon as my friend told me a few things about him, I knew it would be a bad situation, and I told her that I had an uneasy feeling about him and I never even met the guy. Since I've talked to her, they broke up (sorry, I don't like you that way and I know you're going to read this). I know what things are good in relationships, yet I can't start one myself. I just don't understand it. It perplexes me. It is the eternal conundrum in my life as of right now. Whatever. I just wish girls would look for inner beauty, instead of purely basing their decisions on superficial features. I just don't get it, but I'm not a girl and don't really know much about them.
Anyway, enough of my griping/pining about relationships... Thanks for reading... I hope you enjoyed... If you have any comments, you know where to leave them... See ya' next time!
Screw unattainable love. It sucks. I found out last night that Swimmer is taken. Has been since like junior year of high school. I feel like such an IDIOT... Why do I always do this to myself??? This isn't the first time I've wanted a girl that was taken. In fact, I do it all the time. It seems that all the girls that I like already have boyfriends. I can sure pick 'em. That's all I have to say. As of right now, I have no prospects for a relationship. I haven't really seen Chicago around, but randomly, out of the blue today, she said "Hi" to me as I was walking by. It was very strange. We still haven't introduced ourselves. That might be a good idea to do sometime. Let's just say it's not number one on my to-do list... I guess there's still Sexy, but I'm not going to initiate anything.
And in other news, we ran the first act of "Mikado" tonight. It wasn't polished or great or anything, but I could definitely see the potential that a lot of things had. I'm really excited for tomorrow (we run act two). It will be interesting, but exciting....
"Why don't I have a girlfriend?" This may be the most pressing question for me right now... it is definitely the most pertinent question in my life right now. I suppose the biggest reasons why I don't have a girlfriend are because I have high (perhaps unattainable) standards, and I'm not willing to settle. But why would I settle? There's no reason to settle until I find the girl I want to spend the rest of my life. I definitely haven't found her yet. I understand that nobody's perfect, and I also understand that people change and are able to be changed. It's not that I even want a girlfriend, I just want a girl that I can hang out with (exclusively? perhaps) and talk with about anything we want to talk about. Sometimes I think that all girls make decisions based on looks (at least about me) and that's profiling and profiling is wrong. I just wish someone were attracted to me for me. If they want me to change, I will gladly do it, but I'm not going to change for someone to like me. I shouldn't have to. Girls should like me for me, no ifs ands or buts.
I don't know. I've been told I'm a nice guy (nice guys finish last... when will I learn this?) and I've been told I'm mature (grounded, settled), and yet those things don't seem to be very attractive for girls at this stage in life. All they want is "adventure" and "memories", which means they go after the guys that they know will make them feel bad in the end and that they know will provide drama for their otherwise dull and unexciting lives. I just don't get it. Girls confuse me. They don't always look at the larger picture. They base many of their choices for relationships on looks only and not on personality, even though they say they like guys with "good personalities", but what a "good personality" as defined by women is I'm still not sure of. I guess as a guy, I know about things that guys do to girls. This weekend I helped one of my friends with a relationship problem (not that I've ever had one), and I think I did a pretty good job. From what I was told, he insulted her and put her down (definitely a sign of a bad relationship) and he wrote/said some things that he shouldn't have that other people saw/heard. As soon as my friend told me a few things about him, I knew it would be a bad situation, and I told her that I had an uneasy feeling about him and I never even met the guy. Since I've talked to her, they broke up (sorry, I don't like you that way and I know you're going to read this). I know what things are good in relationships, yet I can't start one myself. I just don't understand it. It perplexes me. It is the eternal conundrum in my life as of right now. Whatever. I just wish girls would look for inner beauty, instead of purely basing their decisions on superficial features. I just don't get it, but I'm not a girl and don't really know much about them.
Anyway, enough of my griping/pining about relationships... Thanks for reading... I hope you enjoyed... If you have any comments, you know where to leave them... See ya' next time!