rain, rain go away...
i hate the rain. i don't know if it makes me upset or just makes things worse. all i know is the last few days have really sucked. and i just don't feel like talking about it. i don't want to be alone but i don't want to be with people either. i just don't know what i want. and i've cried more in the last few days then i have in i don't even know how long. i'm just an emo mess lately. not on purpose. it just happened. and i don't know why. and i can't sleep. and i don't want to eat. and everyone left. okay, katie and christelle left but i don't know what i have without them. i don't think i really have friends. there are people i talk to. i don't just go out and spend time with other people. i just have nothing to say to other people. right now is just rough and i need people who know me better than i know myself. and most people don't even know me at all. and i don't want shallow relationships right now. i miss my security blanket. and everything is about to fall apart. and i'm about to be alone in a completely different way. and i know that i'm not going to be okay for a while. and i just want this to be over. i want to go to sleep and wake up when things are okay.