I've made mistakes
and all the mistakes I've made have been regretted.
Especially now.
I don't think it should be seen as a regret, since it was just a kiss.
but it was a kiss that could change everything, for good or bad I could not say.
I know he's not ready after her.
I'm not sure I'm ready yet either.
but now I fear losing a friend, above everything else.
I'd love to give feelings a try
but
they aren't worth losing such a close and wonderful friend.
I can't stop thinking about it, over-analyzing it.
Was I so wrong to have feelings, and express them?
I feel like a volcano that is about to explode.
I don't fucking understand what I want
or what I'm meant to do
and I'm afraid of so much
including myself.
Especially myself.
He says we need to talk, but he sounded positive and fine this afternoon.
If we need to talk, it'll be bad.
It'll crush, but I'll pretend to be fine.
The real question is this:
Do I lose a friend now?
I'm not handling this well.
Fuck. Someone help.
Especially now.
I don't think it should be seen as a regret, since it was just a kiss.
but it was a kiss that could change everything, for good or bad I could not say.
I know he's not ready after her.
I'm not sure I'm ready yet either.
but now I fear losing a friend, above everything else.
I'd love to give feelings a try
but
they aren't worth losing such a close and wonderful friend.
I can't stop thinking about it, over-analyzing it.
Was I so wrong to have feelings, and express them?
I feel like a volcano that is about to explode.
I don't fucking understand what I want
or what I'm meant to do
and I'm afraid of so much
including myself.
Especially myself.
He says we need to talk, but he sounded positive and fine this afternoon.
If we need to talk, it'll be bad.
It'll crush, but I'll pretend to be fine.
The real question is this:
Do I lose a friend now?
I'm not handling this well.
Fuck. Someone help.