I knew you'd never ever be the same

[cookiemoon]

Well I have like...36 school days left to be finished with this.
I'm at the point where I'm asking myself,
"What am I doing this again?"
Sometimes you just need a reminder you know?
I don't know if I feel happy or whatever,
I know I'm happy but I could be happier.
I hate being in the way, I hate being a
"traveling teacher"
I want to have my own space, my own classroom.
Ugh, I hate budget cuts,
I hate politics.
I hate it all.
I'm so like Paul Rudd in Role Models.
I'm definitely pessimistic but
I'm also an idealist.
I'm a walking oxymoron dammit!
This is a weird place to be in.
Don't know how it's supposed to feel, so you think
okay this is fine, but I know I'm not myself.
I'm not the same person I was a year ago.