Nov 11, 2005 11:30
Why does it always feel like nothing will ever go your way? I can come up with a plan that would be fairly good and work out for the better but some how or another it always gets fucked up! I try to do good things for people and what do i get? SHIT ON! WEll it is about that time. FUCK YA'LL!!! I don't know why everyone is so into ruining my life!!!
I am trying really hard to get a job..but no i can't find one becuase of the hurricane people. Don't get me wrong i feel terrible about what happend but damn it. The people that live in columbus need jobs too...WE FUCKING LIVE HERE!!!!
I am having some trouble making a very important decision in my life...either way i go i will be hurt and depressed but i don't know which choice would benefit me more...well i kind of know what i should do but i totally do not want to...i have spent so much time devoted to this that it would be a huge loss to me....i would lose a part of myself...but then again if i do give up i might be happier in the long run. Then again i know what will happen if i give up. I CANT live with that at all..i would rather throw myself off of the AFLAC building. I guess i just have to wait it out until i just can't take anymore and then i will probably ruin my life...OH WELL...EVERYONE DOES STUPID SHIT AT ONE POINT IN THEIR LIFE. i just tend to keep taking the shit.
What happened to me!!!! I used to be cool. I used to have friends. I used to want to succeed in life. Now i just want to hide.
I hate waking up in an ill mood. That seems to happen more offten these days...
LOVE ME MOTHER FUCKER!!!!!
I will BEAT the breaks off this bitch... keep on fucking with me slut