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I wouldn't normally share this, but here it is because I think that it's something that should be shared:
Do you believe in signs....things that God send to you to let you know where you are right or wrong? In a time when I don't know what I believe in, signs are definitely one of the things that I do still look for. Back when I still believed in fate, I might say that things were supposed to happen the way they were planned to, so signs would do nothing because things were already in motion. Now, I don't know about fate and I don't know about my life, but I do know that there are signs around me and not just stupid ones. For example, I don't believe that because I see a scale with some one's name on it that that means we're going to be together forever or some thing stupid like that, but I do think that God talks to us in mysterious ways.
There's something wrong with me this week. I don't know what it is, but I keep having the urge to cry. So tonight, after having a perfectly wonderful day, I felt really bad for some reason and alone in this world. I put on my running clothes and my running shoes for the first time in months and I got ready to run because, for some reason, I thought that this was something that would make me finally feel better. I lightly jogged down to the grotto and lit my two candles in their spots and I got on my knees and was alll alone. And I asked God to tell me what to do with my life and to give me a sign. As I sat there, I didn't feel much better, so I went to my favorite spot and just sat there looking at the grotto and the dome and listening to my favorite Stephen Speaks song on repeat. And then I started to cry and just lay there in a ball wishing I could run and be happy again.
So as this is happening, I'm still searching for some thing. I don't know what it is I'm searching for, but it's some thing. So I take my IPOD and I turn the dial really fast and just hit some random buttons and think, "this next song is going to speak to me." It comes on. It is the song "Take Me To Your Leader" by the Newsboys. God spoke. I think it's time I finally listened.
Do you believe in signs....things that God send to you to let you know where you are right or wrong? In a time when I don't know what I believe in, signs are definitely one of the things that I do still look for. Back when I still believed in fate, I might say that things were supposed to happen the way they were planned to, so signs would do nothing because things were already in motion. Now, I don't know about fate and I don't know about my life, but I do know that there are signs around me and not just stupid ones. For example, I don't believe that because I see a scale with some one's name on it that that means we're going to be together forever or some thing stupid like that, but I do think that God talks to us in mysterious ways.
There's something wrong with me this week. I don't know what it is, but I keep having the urge to cry. So tonight, after having a perfectly wonderful day, I felt really bad for some reason and alone in this world. I put on my running clothes and my running shoes for the first time in months and I got ready to run because, for some reason, I thought that this was something that would make me finally feel better. I lightly jogged down to the grotto and lit my two candles in their spots and I got on my knees and was alll alone. And I asked God to tell me what to do with my life and to give me a sign. As I sat there, I didn't feel much better, so I went to my favorite spot and just sat there looking at the grotto and the dome and listening to my favorite Stephen Speaks song on repeat. And then I started to cry and just lay there in a ball wishing I could run and be happy again.
So as this is happening, I'm still searching for some thing. I don't know what it is I'm searching for, but it's some thing. So I take my IPOD and I turn the dial really fast and just hit some random buttons and think, "this next song is going to speak to me." It comes on. It is the song "Take Me To Your Leader" by the Newsboys. God spoke. I think it's time I finally listened.