23 Days
The count down has begun. I have 23 more days until I leave. 23 days until I am thrown into a new life. I can't wait. I am a little scared about it, I will admit, but I know that God will watch over me and protect me. I also know what I have waiting on me when I come home. I have 2 wonderful dogs who are like children to me, friends and family.
I will admit that my heart has been broken again, by someone I thought could never do anything to hurt me. I don't think he has done it on purpose, but either way he has hurt me, and it is my fault. My fault because I let myself fall for him so quickly. I should have waited, given my heart more time to heal, but like I always do I jumped in feet first! I had been having thoughts lately whether or not my feelings for Ryan were fading and maybe they are, maybe it would take just a glimpse of him to remind me what I have in him. But there is a side to Ryan that the Army has brought out or that I just didn't see now. As his best friend I thought he would be able to share anything with me. His thoughts on basic training, sure he has shared his experience at basic with me. But his thoughts on our relationship and how we can make it work while I am gone have been not been shared with me. He actually asked Sgt. Squires in a letter to tell me that I can't look or even talk to him while we are there at the same time. Did he really think I wouldn't be able to handle it? He promised me that if we had a problem we would work it out together. Well, I see our being apart for over 7 months, maybe more a problem, and he didn't come to me, he went to other people. I knew he would change. I was even preparing myself for it. I thought the change would be for the better, maybe it is though. Maybe he realized that I am not the one for him or I am not good enough for him. I also know that if it is God's will we will be together. I just wish he could have wrote me and told me his feelings. I don't know if I should end it or let him. I don't know if it is the right thing to do for the both of us. I don't want him to get upset because I leave him and he doesn't do as well as he could. I don't know what to do......I just don't know what to do. Maybe tomorrow...........
I still love Ryan and I hope that he still loves me.........Maybe tomorrow I will know what to do............
Maybe Tomorrow.
The world will be a better place in which to live and work;
and all its citizens will be free from the injustices
of persecution, prejudice and intolerance.
Maybe Tomorrow
All nations will declare a Truce for Peace;
and begin a new Reign of Harmony
amongst government leaders, religious sects,
and the everyday people who color our everyday lives.
Maybe Tomorrow
We can return to our places of business and walks of life,
and not fear the sound of an airplane in-flight overhead;
or feel threatened by the child-like lettering on a posted envelope.
Maybe Tomorrow
Will bring the answers to all we pray for;
Because we are brave enough to fight for
Basic Freedoms and Moral Human Rights.
And, Maybe soon, our words of Hope for a perfect Tomorrow
Will fade into the Shadows of Yesterday,
As we breathe-in the new and Peaceful world of Today.
Today, Tomorrow and Always,
May God Bless You and May God Bless America
I will admit that my heart has been broken again, by someone I thought could never do anything to hurt me. I don't think he has done it on purpose, but either way he has hurt me, and it is my fault. My fault because I let myself fall for him so quickly. I should have waited, given my heart more time to heal, but like I always do I jumped in feet first! I had been having thoughts lately whether or not my feelings for Ryan were fading and maybe they are, maybe it would take just a glimpse of him to remind me what I have in him. But there is a side to Ryan that the Army has brought out or that I just didn't see now. As his best friend I thought he would be able to share anything with me. His thoughts on basic training, sure he has shared his experience at basic with me. But his thoughts on our relationship and how we can make it work while I am gone have been not been shared with me. He actually asked Sgt. Squires in a letter to tell me that I can't look or even talk to him while we are there at the same time. Did he really think I wouldn't be able to handle it? He promised me that if we had a problem we would work it out together. Well, I see our being apart for over 7 months, maybe more a problem, and he didn't come to me, he went to other people. I knew he would change. I was even preparing myself for it. I thought the change would be for the better, maybe it is though. Maybe he realized that I am not the one for him or I am not good enough for him. I also know that if it is God's will we will be together. I just wish he could have wrote me and told me his feelings. I don't know if I should end it or let him. I don't know if it is the right thing to do for the both of us. I don't want him to get upset because I leave him and he doesn't do as well as he could. I don't know what to do......I just don't know what to do. Maybe tomorrow...........
I still love Ryan and I hope that he still loves me.........Maybe tomorrow I will know what to do............
Maybe Tomorrow.
The world will be a better place in which to live and work;
and all its citizens will be free from the injustices
of persecution, prejudice and intolerance.
Maybe Tomorrow
All nations will declare a Truce for Peace;
and begin a new Reign of Harmony
amongst government leaders, religious sects,
and the everyday people who color our everyday lives.
Maybe Tomorrow
We can return to our places of business and walks of life,
and not fear the sound of an airplane in-flight overhead;
or feel threatened by the child-like lettering on a posted envelope.
Maybe Tomorrow
Will bring the answers to all we pray for;
Because we are brave enough to fight for
Basic Freedoms and Moral Human Rights.
And, Maybe soon, our words of Hope for a perfect Tomorrow
Will fade into the Shadows of Yesterday,
As we breathe-in the new and Peaceful world of Today.
Today, Tomorrow and Always,
May God Bless You and May God Bless America