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i am so sick of being angry and not understood.
Starting with my ex-roommates, who didn't seem to understand that me wanting to go to bed and not wanting parties going to 4am, particularly during the week might be a reasonable request, and refusing to accommodate me on it.
followed by Scott, who doesn't tell me that he has a girlfriend now. When he drops it into the conversation, i get upset that i didn't know, mostly out of embarrassment (because would i have been talking to him as much if i'd known? not at all). was my reaction not totally rational? maybe. but when i tell him that it bothered me that he didn't tell me about it, and try to explain my reasons, his response is "it's none of your business, and none of my other friends care about it" which to me says "you shouldn't be feeling what you're feeling."
the end result of these being i moved out of my apartment, and scott has declared our friendship (such as it was) over. it feels a lot like i'm losing all the stuff that made freshman year great. i know that freshman year is long over, but its things that you kind of hope to hold onto from college, and they're just disappearing or turning on me.
Starting with my ex-roommates, who didn't seem to understand that me wanting to go to bed and not wanting parties going to 4am, particularly during the week might be a reasonable request, and refusing to accommodate me on it.
followed by Scott, who doesn't tell me that he has a girlfriend now. When he drops it into the conversation, i get upset that i didn't know, mostly out of embarrassment (because would i have been talking to him as much if i'd known? not at all). was my reaction not totally rational? maybe. but when i tell him that it bothered me that he didn't tell me about it, and try to explain my reasons, his response is "it's none of your business, and none of my other friends care about it" which to me says "you shouldn't be feeling what you're feeling."
the end result of these being i moved out of my apartment, and scott has declared our friendship (such as it was) over. it feels a lot like i'm losing all the stuff that made freshman year great. i know that freshman year is long over, but its things that you kind of hope to hold onto from college, and they're just disappearing or turning on me.