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bowled not too good today.
i feel like i've been placed back where i came from.
165 153 182 131
and it doesn't feel good at all. i need to settle and struggle within myself, my mind to build a mental wall.
and one thing that i gained from this, is the reminder that the world is superficial. no longer does the air around you exist. people don't care. really.
it feels different. it all does. i'm not sure if it's the mental feeling, or the physical feeling. i'm not sure if i'm not as strong mentally now, than i was last year.
but that's okay. cos it doesn't matter as much to me as it does.
because i'm not afraid.
because i'm resiliant.
because i'm mentally strong.
because i will figure it out.
because God told me not to be afraid.
Do not lose the courage you had in the past, which has a great reward.
You must hold on, so you can do what God wants and receive what He has promised.
Hebrews 10:35-36
i feel like i'm falling sick all over again. don't even remember being well anymore.
need to sleep.
it's strange how the feeling of being sick of being sick overwrites the feeling of staleness from not bowling well.
at least the thought of seeing FT first thing tmr morning makes me happy. (:
i feel like i've been placed back where i came from.
165 153 182 131
and it doesn't feel good at all. i need to settle and struggle within myself, my mind to build a mental wall.
and one thing that i gained from this, is the reminder that the world is superficial. no longer does the air around you exist. people don't care. really.
it feels different. it all does. i'm not sure if it's the mental feeling, or the physical feeling. i'm not sure if i'm not as strong mentally now, than i was last year.
but that's okay. cos it doesn't matter as much to me as it does.
because i'm not afraid.
because i'm resiliant.
because i'm mentally strong.
because i will figure it out.
because God told me not to be afraid.
Do not lose the courage you had in the past, which has a great reward.
You must hold on, so you can do what God wants and receive what He has promised.
Hebrews 10:35-36
i feel like i'm falling sick all over again. don't even remember being well anymore.
need to sleep.
it's strange how the feeling of being sick of being sick overwrites the feeling of staleness from not bowling well.
at least the thought of seeing FT first thing tmr morning makes me happy. (: