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I feel so drained and tired right now it's not even funny. I was feeling ok, still tired, but when I was at Ken's I just got so drained. I don't know if it's the fact that it holds memories and the repression of them, but it was odd because I've just been trying to be like, "it's an experience, everyone goes through it, think of the good times" that whole attitude. and for the most part, it's working. but it was like whoa, smells, sight, and sound. why must i have such a good memory when it comes to stuff like that?!!?! oh, well. there is nothing i can do to change the fact, learn from the mistakes, and prolly, yeah if i could go back, i'd do stuff differently, because i know some stuff better now. like what to do and what not to do if im ever in a relationship again. haha...not very likely....but oh well...need to find someone crazy like me.
i have decided i need something pierced. i think im going for the industrial or the targus. both might be painful, but i think the pain is good for some reason. i like it....its weird, but since my ears don't hurt its odd....i don't know when id get them....but im thinking soon. i just need to find a reputable piercer to do so, not going to the mall to get these done. *grin* but the industrial is pretty cool. i'd get in my left ear. (and it's only two cartilege piercings with one earing through them. its cool...) or maybe just another set of holes in the lobes and a cartilege.
it seems that all i've done this week is go to school, do hw, go to work, and do more homework. i wish i had more time to do other things. so tempted to go over to sarah's and partay a little...but can't afford not doing my homework and missing work because of a buzz....im so horrible. but i prolly could drink sarah under the table. *evil grin*
oh, it was hilarious, we were at big boy's today, and they ask the usual question, smoking or non - smoking. lis was "non smokinging" and i said "yeah, i forgot my weed at home." it was funny becuase it took everyone a second to register what i had said.
well, it's time to go write papers that i really don't want to. the websites are done for tonight...just have a shitload of code to work on tomorrow after work, along with a paper due tuesday, a research paper that should have been started a month ago, thats due in two weeks....god, im so organized. haha
i have decided i need something pierced. i think im going for the industrial or the targus. both might be painful, but i think the pain is good for some reason. i like it....its weird, but since my ears don't hurt its odd....i don't know when id get them....but im thinking soon. i just need to find a reputable piercer to do so, not going to the mall to get these done. *grin* but the industrial is pretty cool. i'd get in my left ear. (and it's only two cartilege piercings with one earing through them. its cool...) or maybe just another set of holes in the lobes and a cartilege.
it seems that all i've done this week is go to school, do hw, go to work, and do more homework. i wish i had more time to do other things. so tempted to go over to sarah's and partay a little...but can't afford not doing my homework and missing work because of a buzz....im so horrible. but i prolly could drink sarah under the table. *evil grin*
oh, it was hilarious, we were at big boy's today, and they ask the usual question, smoking or non - smoking. lis was "non smokinging" and i said "yeah, i forgot my weed at home." it was funny becuase it took everyone a second to register what i had said.
well, it's time to go write papers that i really don't want to. the websites are done for tonight...just have a shitload of code to work on tomorrow after work, along with a paper due tuesday, a research paper that should have been started a month ago, thats due in two weeks....god, im so organized. haha